Luling

I have never wanted a drink so badly in my life as I do right now.

Sapling

You got to get through it Luling....Take a cold shower...Have a nice cold sweet drink...Or some hot tea...Put some music on...Take your mind off it and don't drink!

Hollyanne

Don't drink.
I guarantee you, this will pass.
Talk back to it!
Get outta here bozo!!!
You are no friend of mine!!!!


No way is it ok to drink. No way.
Anne

Healthyfood

Luling

Yea Ive been experiencing sometimes mega urges too. But just don't do anything just wait. Sometimes it takes hours to go away! Be strong. Booze will be empty and trust me it feels even worse than already now.

Luling

Aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhh! I don't know, guys. I had talked myself into it totally, and was really looking forward to it, but I really don't want to keep drinking.

If I have a drink ...

1. I'll have several. I'll keep drinking until I go to bed. Then I'll drink tomorrow too, etc.

2. I wouldn't be alert enough to see what happens next in the book I've been reading before bed each night.

3. I would sleep in and not be able to get up early for my run.

4. My daughter probably already knows I drink too much, and I'd continue setting a bad example for her.

5. I'd wake up feeling weird and uneasy, and I f-ing hate that.

Dammit, dammit, dammit. I'm going to go beat up my son's punching bag now, followed by iced tea. For the record, this sucks. Why oh why can't I have a drink like a normal person.

Sapling

Because that's not the way we are wired...Do me a favor and smack that bag once for me.

Payton

How are you going to feel about yourself having to start at day 1 again tomorrow, having dumped your promise to yourself?

You can do this!

Dee74

Have you heard of Urge Surfing Luling?
It was useful for me..

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...e-surfing.html

I found dwelling on the unfairness of not drinking didn't help me at all.

I'd proven time and time again that I was a very bad drinker - it bought a lot of sadness and misery into my life.

I had to accept that was a given - there was no way for me to drink 'goodly'.

I could be the person I wanted to be and live the life I wanted to live...or I could drink.
There was no middle ground for me - and I expect for you too.

Hang in there - it really will get easier....use the support here

D

Luling

I'd definitely feel like crap. Even worse, I'm afraid that I'd end up not starting back on day 1 tomorrow; I'd somehow rationalize postponing it for just one more day.

Alright, I've got this. Found the gloves, now I'm going to go beat up the punching bag. I'll throw in a few extra smacks and maybe even a kick or two for you, Sapling.

Sorry if I seem like I'm being a drama queen by starting this thread, I really was about to go drink and wanted to talk myself out of it and/or be talked out of it. I'm not out of the woods yet, if I can just get through the next couple of hours ... I've got this. Okay.

bloss

I have been asking myself the same question for many years. I tried and tried to drink like a normal person. Then I realized a person who doesn't have a problem with alcohol, doesn't obsess about it like I do. They don't go to the store put the booze in the cart and pile a bunch of stuff on top of it and hope no one notices. They don't take it home secretly and stash in odd places. They don't drink until it's gone/or they pass out in a black-out. They don't get taken to the hospital by their spouse because he is afraid I'm dying. They don't wake up and say what happened, where did all these bruises come from, what did I do, what did I say, who did I call??? WTF??? Then they don't do it again, and again and again...I did all of these things, so lucky not to get DUI or jail...that's why I can't drink like a "normal" person...I give up...I just can't do it...I know now I am not the only one like this...so I don't feel so strange anymore...because I give up trying to drink normally...If I can do it, I just know you can too...best wishes for continued sobriety...

neferkamichael

Please just say NO, as the days go by it gets easier, honest.

Veritas1

I can't have "a" drink like a normal person.

I would want another, and another, and another.

It's never enough.

I heard someone say, "You take the drink, and the drink takes you."

I was listening to Joe and Charlie, AA speaker Big Book study cd's today, and they were talking about the Doctor's Opinion which you can find in the book called Alcoholics Anonymous.

This doctor had a theory that we have an abnormal reaction which explains why we cannot drink like people that have a normal reaction to alcohol.

You can search online to find and listen to them explain it if you think it might be helpful.

Another thing that might be helpful is to replace the words you are using.

For example:

I really want to drink.

change to:

I really want to harm myself and others.

Words that will help you see the truth about you and drinking.

What happens when you drink? Well, you know that.

And we still take that drink.

Joe and Charlie talked about that sense of ease and comfort that comes at once when we take a drink.

That's why we drink. We like the effects produced by alcohol. We drink to change the way we feel.

We think it will give us relief.

We need a new solution.

Be encouraged.

PS, You may wish to call the AA hotline in times like this just to have someone to talk with.

Big Book Online - the doctor's opinion

XA-Speakers - The lights are on!