should i go tonight ?
Earth Child
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should i go tonight ?
I really feel ill right now mentally and there is an open AA meeting tonight that i wanted to go with my husband , he said i should go , but am worried ill do something bad there or mistake someone for one of the spies as i have mistaking my husband as one of them before and ended up threatening him with a hammer ...i wont be taking any weapons with me or anything like that and my husband is going to be sitting with me as well .
I just worried that am going to act weird or something.
I do need a meeting tonight because am struggling a lot right now.
My husband isnt aware of how bad am struggling but is aware that mentally am not good
I just worried that am going to act weird or something.
I do need a meeting tonight because am struggling a lot right now.
My husband isnt aware of how bad am struggling but is aware that mentally am not good
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Do you trust your husband enough to let him know how much you're struggling? Maybe start there. If you are truly worried about acting on the thoughts you might have, can you listen to some speaker tapes online, or find an online meeting to join? I sure hope you get the support you need. I think it's good to recognize, however, that it might not be the safest option for you to attend an in-person meeting. Does anyone at the meeting know of your mental health struggles?
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I have told my husband am struggling , he said i should go and i feel the same i should go
No one at the AA meeting knows of my mental health...i havent been there for a while now ...so i dont know who will be there or not
There is one person who knows i have mental health problems but don't know about the voices and the delusions am having ...as i have seen her in months .
No one at the AA meeting knows of my mental health...i havent been there for a while now ...so i dont know who will be there or not
There is one person who knows i have mental health problems but don't know about the voices and the delusions am having ...as i have seen her in months .
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Forgive me. However, it sounds like you may need more than a meeting to "cure what ails you". If you are threatening anyone with a hammer...it may be time for professional help. A doctor, a psychiatrist. Based on my PERSONAL experience...this isnt "normal" thinking. It sounds like you have true paranioa. Good news it can be treated and you will feel better if you are willing to go. JUST MY OPINION.
I wish you the best.
I wish you the best.
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Earth Child
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I have seen a psych since that happened and am on medication for it
am more calmer now and but i don't feel able to go by myself .
thankfully this is an open meeting the last meeting i was at was a closed one and i found that really hard to cope with
am more calmer now and but i don't feel able to go by myself .
thankfully this is an open meeting the last meeting i was at was a closed one and i found that really hard to cope with
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You did fine last time...And you got something out of it..Enough you want to go back...Sure you should go...Bring your husband...It could be good for both of you...You'll get more comfortable the more times you go and start to get to know these people...Enjoy it...
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My friend, F, who has 27 years of continuous sobriety, also has voices inside of her head. Yesterday she let me know they weren't trying to hurt her or anyone else. I guess I'm saying that you are not the only person who hears those voices. I don't know if they sound the same, but they are there. Somehow, she also said for the time she is in a meeting, they are pretty quiet, and that is priceless to her. And if you are more comfortable with your husband by your side, have him come with you. No one has ever asked me to leave if I don't show my invisible AA identification card!
I wish you well today.
Love, hugs, & peace,
I wish you well today.
Love, hugs, & peace,
Earth Child
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Am going to go with my husband i called the crisis team and they told me to take some extra medication and see how i go
i think ill be ok as long as my husband is with me
i think ill be ok as long as my husband is with me
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DarkAsylum, I can't imagine the courage it takes for you to do this. I am humbled by you, you should be very proud of yourself. Well done. Please post and let us know what happened at your meeting.
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Just back from the meeting it was a women 2nd birthday today so she shared
I sat with my husband and me and my husband had cross words to each other before the meeting started over where i wanted to sit ( i dont like people sitting in front of me and my husband wants to sit at the back
)
apart from that nothing else happened i got a 1 month chip as well and the people there where really nice , but there was no one i recognized from the last time i went there
I sat with my husband and me and my husband had cross words to each other before the meeting started over where i wanted to sit ( i dont like people sitting in front of me and my husband wants to sit at the back
)
apart from that nothing else happened i got a 1 month chip as well and the people there where really nice , but there was no one i recognized from the last time i went there
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Yes he is aware of it i take medication but it only helps a little
I had to call the crisis team tonight and they told me to take extra medication.
But medication can only do so much the rest is up to me...i have to learn to distract myself from them and be mindful as well
I just got a book on mindfulness that if i can concentrate i can read it it will help me understand it better and be able to understand myself as well
I had to call the crisis team tonight and they told me to take extra medication.
But medication can only do so much the rest is up to me...i have to learn to distract myself from them and be mindful as well
I just got a book on mindfulness that if i can concentrate i can read it it will help me understand it better and be able to understand myself as well
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