ulfr

Am thinking about going to an AA meeting tonight but am really nervous of people and have social anxiety... also hear voices that tell me to hurt people and thoughts about hurting people but i have never acted on them ...my husband normally comes everywhere i go because i cant go out the house by myself my social anxiety is that bad but he cant come to the AA meeting with me so i have to go by myself ... my husband will be at a Starbucks near where the meeting is and i can call him if i need to .
My drs and psych know about how i am feeling about wanting to hurt people but they say that's its just a passing thought ...i have to have certain thinks with me that make me feel safe one of them being a stress ball and the other a pair of gloves that i wear ... but i still feel scared about going ...i dont know anyone there ...i really need a meeting at the moment as well as am feeling a little shaky

BillyPilgrim

The one thing about an AA meeting is that nobody judges you , nor expects you to speak. You can sit and listen. I am not confident socially, but I have had a warm welcome from AA.

Good luck with your sobriety

Sapling

Just go....These are nice people that want to stop drinking for good...Like you do...You might make some friends there. If it's an open meeting you can bring your husband.

janiebluebird

As long as your are self-aware of your thoughts and realize that they are not rational (and you do not carry around any weapons), I can't see the harm in attending a meeting. It might be making things worse staying in the house all the time. How long have you had those thoughts for? Are you being medicated for it?

desertsong

If you are going to an "open" meeting, your husband can come with you. When everyone introduces themselves, he can just say he is there to support you. No one will think anything of it. The first meeting can be scary, but I think you'll find the people to be very welcoming and supportive. There won't be any pressure to speak, so you can just listen and learn.

It's good that you're going, and I wish you much success on this journey.

sugarbear1

and if you go alone, what a hurdle you'll have crossed!

Whatever you do, I wish you well!

ulfr

the only open meeting on tonight in my area is for people who speak polish and i don't speak polish ...
I have had these thoughts and voices for 2 years now they are there all the time am on medication for the voices but so far they haven't helped at all
I got worse lately with my mental health and things seem to be a lot worse
My husband says am having delusions and i have mistaking my husband for one of the delusions and threaten him with a hammer ... i wont take any weapons with me to the meeting
My medication was just put up 3 weeks ago and am waiting for them to start working i have a psych appointment tomorrow at 9am

sugarbear1

Get to the closed meeting and keep hubby close by. Listen to what is said, you can always get up and leave if you can't stay.

Sapling

There is something very safe about the rooms of AA...I think you'll feel that when you walk in. Enjoy it.

ulfr

Thanks

PaperDolls

There's a regular guy at my home group that deals with drug-induced psychosis, including hearing voices. He's welcomed with open arms at our group.

Let us know how it goes!!

FlyerFan

Keep us posted, good luck! And don't panic! The first time is always scary but we can promise you you'll feel better.

jocata

You'll find people from all walks of life there. Many of us have mental issues. It's just a part of who we are, it doesn't define us.

I think you will be just fine once you walk through the door.

God bless.

2granddaughters

In AA quitting drinking is just the beginning. They'll help you a lot.

Wishing you the best.

Bob R

BobGT

Does the AA meeting place have a lobby or room next door where your husband could wait? That way he would be close. Best wishes.

IndaMiricale

You can do it Ella, my thoughts are with you.

Please let me know how it goes.

Good love, Inda

ulfr

am just back from the meeting and it went ok was nervous sitting next to people as my voices keep telling me to hurt them ...i didn't stay fora coffee at the end because i had to meet my husband but i got some info on meetings in the area and am gong to go to one tomorrow that is an open meeting that my husband can go to as well
Am glad i went but am still feeling a little shaky

PaperDolls

That's great to hear! Keep going, it will get better. The nerves and anxiety at our first meetings is normal for all of us.

Sapling

Good for you...That's great. You did well...

IndaMiricale

Awesome

Glad to hear you went and all is well. Also now your husband can attend with you.


Good work.