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Hi-I'm new here but not to recovery. I was sober for 20 years and now have been hooked on wine, wine, wine for at least 3 years. I've had enough and especially since my Dad died in October I can no longer drink. Since I'm not new to recovery I'm making lists of the negatives and plan on going to my first AA meeting on Friday afternoon.
I'm nervous and excited at the sdame time. My list of things I hope change in my life is getting longer every day, from foot cramps to blacking out and forgetting who called me the night before.
I hope to find some guidance here so I'll be reading your stories,
my best
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I'm nervous and excited at the sdame time. My list of things I hope change in my life is getting longer every day, from foot cramps to blacking out and forgetting who called me the night before.
I hope to find some guidance here so I'll be reading your stories,
my best
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Originally Posted by bye2wine61 
Since I'm not new to recovery I'm making lists of the negatives and plan on going to my first AA meeting on Friday afternoon.
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Sorry about the loss of your dad, and YES, you can do this again! I am excited you are excited, I was excited too. I met a lot of new friends. Have fun at your meeting tomorrow and tell us how it went!
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I didn't wait I went last night. I've never been to a meeting in this city so I was really nervous. Arrived 15 minutes late due to bad directions and the topic was 'RELATIONSHIPS' ...something about that seemed like a co-incidence since it was a relationship that stopped me from attending meetings many years ago. How fitting and perfect as a reminder to me that 13th step activity is bad news.
This sounds unbelievable but when I was fleeing to my car after the meeting I ran into one of my past 'relationships'. He was very polite to me and maybe that was meant to happen since I really need to just be his friend now. How wierd last night was.
Meeting #2 is tomorrow at noon.
This sounds unbelievable but when I was fleeing to my car after the meeting I ran into one of my past 'relationships'. He was very polite to me and maybe that was meant to happen since I really need to just be his friend now. How wierd last night was.
Meeting #2 is tomorrow at noon.
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I've been working on a list of things I will not miss:
1000 + Calories
Lack of sleep (waking up every 2 hours after drinking and being exhausted the next day)
snoring
Extreme thirst
$$$$$
Heartburn
Foot cramps
Extreme Sweating
Swollen legs
Red blood shot eyes
Waking up not knowing how much I drank
Dizziness throughout the night
Canker Sores
Purple Teeth and unhealthy gums
having husband tell me that I was really drunk the night before
Bad breath
Not wanting to get out of bed in the morning
Fear I could not resist going out to buy more wine
Constantly obsessing about NOT drinking
Not able to watch an entire movie or show
Not participating in events that start later than 5pm in the evening
Hangovers
Unable to read
Missed work
Afraid someone will confront me about my drinking
Early AM anxiety
Lost memory
Lack of motivation
Reliving my Dad’s last hours
Dirty house
Profound sadness
Feelings of not wanting to live
Isolating from life and family
Hoping no one I know calls me
Counting down the hours/minutes until I can start drinking that day
Obsessing over time left of the evening while drinking
Knowing that I cannot handle drinking but doing it anyway
Future poor health in later years
1000 + Calories
Lack of sleep (waking up every 2 hours after drinking and being exhausted the next day)
snoring
Extreme thirst
$$$$$
Heartburn
Foot cramps
Extreme Sweating
Swollen legs
Red blood shot eyes
Waking up not knowing how much I drank
Dizziness throughout the night
Canker Sores
Purple Teeth and unhealthy gums
having husband tell me that I was really drunk the night before
Bad breath
Not wanting to get out of bed in the morning
Fear I could not resist going out to buy more wine
Constantly obsessing about NOT drinking
Not able to watch an entire movie or show
Not participating in events that start later than 5pm in the evening
Hangovers
Unable to read
Missed work
Afraid someone will confront me about my drinking
Early AM anxiety
Lost memory
Lack of motivation
Reliving my Dad’s last hours
Dirty house
Profound sadness
Feelings of not wanting to live
Isolating from life and family
Hoping no one I know calls me
Counting down the hours/minutes until I can start drinking that day
Obsessing over time left of the evening while drinking
Knowing that I cannot handle drinking but doing it anyway
Future poor health in later years
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speaker meeting
3rd meeting last night was a speaker meeting. Really good stuff. She talked a lot about what I can relate to which is depression caused by alcohol and poor health. I've been wondering how I'm going to stay sober THIS time without 'hitting' bottom, all other times (2X) I had some awful things that happened to me, this time it was my health going downhill pretty fast that was my low. I know all the other classic bad stuff would have eventually happened but I chose to stop the train wreck before hand. It's only day 5 and last night after the meeting my steering wheel was still thinking about the wine asile at Walgreens. One Day at A Time. Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired.
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4ht meeting on Sunday, good bunch of smart downtown folks. So many things look more detailed now, I noticed something downtowon that took me down memory row and I used to walk by it all of the time after a couple glasses of wine. At the meeting they passed around a 'women's list' of phone numbers for me since I was crying during my turn to talk. I just couldn't get past the subject HUMILITY because that was what my Dad was all about.
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Last night my son called me at 8:30pm to tell me he would not be home until this am. I was so glad that I didn't drink because on Sunday I would normally be passed out by 7-8pm, starting drinking at 2-3pm. REALLY made me happy!
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