Moving on to Feb. :-)
Powerless over Alcohol
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Join Date: May 2011
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Moving on to Feb. :-)
Well its Feb. and all is well.
The new job is going great and getting used to being up at 6am. And feeling good and strong is sobriety but the other morning had a good reading and meditation. So I thought I would share. Its about those thoughts we get about picking up a drink and how soon we can forgot how bad things were. For after some time and I become clear and feeling good in the past I would think about having a drink and the pleasure of it. The temporary escape from any boredom, or extra happiness, or even the people at the bar.But what I didnt think about then was the letdown after, the hangovers, the money, the remorse, and just the guilt of starting all over again and being a failure. So in other words in that moment I would think of that first drink or two and all the pleasures, without thinking it through. And to realize in a matter a days to a couple weeks I could destroy everything I have worked so hard to achieve. But I am so grateful to AA and SR that I do think through those crazy thoughts. And it does become easier and way less often.
With that all I have to get to a meeting. Everyone take it one day and moment at a time.
Good love, Inda
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The new job is going great and getting used to being up at 6am. And feeling good and strong is sobriety but the other morning had a good reading and meditation. So I thought I would share. Its about those thoughts we get about picking up a drink and how soon we can forgot how bad things were. For after some time and I become clear and feeling good in the past I would think about having a drink and the pleasure of it. The temporary escape from any boredom, or extra happiness, or even the people at the bar.But what I didnt think about then was the letdown after, the hangovers, the money, the remorse, and just the guilt of starting all over again and being a failure. So in other words in that moment I would think of that first drink or two and all the pleasures, without thinking it through. And to realize in a matter a days to a couple weeks I could destroy everything I have worked so hard to achieve. But I am so grateful to AA and SR that I do think through those crazy thoughts. And it does become easier and way less often.
With that all I have to get to a meeting. Everyone take it one day and moment at a time.
Good love, Inda
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Gulf Coast, TX
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WTG Inda. I agree with it becoming easier, I just had a moment today that would have had me ( OH F***-IT) drinking in the past, I barged into the little corner store and bought a large Arizona Tea. 
I just walk right past it now as if it were the black plague.
Best wishes all
I just walk right past it now as if it were the black plague.Best wishes all
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Join Date: Dec 2011
Location: USA
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yea, I've been trying to justify a planned "escape" from sobriety, I'm sure it would be interesting, but I'm not sure it's worth the crash landing.. i could completely black out and wake up in jail too. (or not wake up)
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