gr8ful42day

Tomorrow is 1 yr since my BF of 25 yrs and I were in a car accident while drinking. It's been the hardest longest year of my life. Most of it I have faced drunk.

I am doing better now, not drinking. I will face tomorrow sober.

I plead guilty 2 months ago to 1st Degree Vehicular Homicide. The DA was asking the judge to give me 15 years. I rec'd only 4 yrs probation. Everyone says I should be happy, but I am still so very sad.

Today my dad went on life support, dying from alcohol drinking for years. I have got to stay sober!

lushly

I am sorry that things are difficult for you. I believe that I walk through events now, as I turned my will and life over to an energy that allows me to not drink today and I believe will guild me through life in the the future. It is out of my hands and each situation is what I will learn and be enriched from. Even death. I hope I can remind you that you are not alone and I am here.

Dee74

I'm sorry to read you're still struggling and dealing with sorrow gr8ful - but I'm really glad you're back with us

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LoftyIdeals

Welcome back, gr8ful42day. I also remember your story. I'm sorry about your dad, and your continuing struggle with your loss. I commend you for wanting to resolve your pain soberly, and for not continuing to add to your pain by drinking.

At the AA big book meeting I attended last night, we re-read Bill's Story, which always enlightens me and renews my faith in God. No matter how far we may feel from God, He is there, ready to hear our calls out to Him, whether they are joyous or desparate. I've found the same applies to the folks at SR.

I hope that you will ask God into your heart, to help you heal, and to lead you toward His forgiveness, and to be able to forgive yourself. My prayers are with you, my friend.

ttbp

I'm sorry you're struggling gr8ful42day. xx

WritingFromLife

Hi Gr8ful! I am glad you are back, too. I think of you and your story often...you have helped many with with what you have been through, I dare say your story has saved lives. I know that isn't very soothing for you at this time, and it won't bring your boyfriend back. I can't imagine what you are going through. I am just thankful you have shared here, and I hope you stick around. It could've been any one of us behind the wheel that night. You are here for a reason.

shanman422

This breaks my heart! I am so glad that you are sober today... not just for you, but for your lost friend!! Try and stay positive, you survived for a reason!!

gr8ful42day

i made it, sober.. ty for being here. I luv u all.

wellwisher

Oh, good, I was thinking about you a lot today. (((HUGS))) right back atcha!

CarolD

Prayers continue for your recovery and peace..:hug

Sorry to know your Dad is so sick..he must be awfully tired of struggleing.

gr8ful42day

He passed peacefully yesterday morning. Ironic, same date as bff and I wrecked and bff died. God is just smackin me around! Life on life's terms???? I picked up the white chip dad could never get, last night. Thanks Carol, sincerely.

ttbp

Sorry to hear your Dad passed away

Well done on picking up your chip - what an achievement xxx

gr8ful42day

I picked it up for him, although, I think I will make yesterday my 'date'...for my best friend who died in wreck last yr and my dad...and mostly myself.

northland

I went through the same ordeal over the last few years. Accident happened Oct/2006, I plead guilty to impaired causing death, and impaired causing bodily harm. I received the minimum sentence, which was 2 years less a day + 2 years probation. I've already completed over a year of probation. If you ever want to talk, because I know exactly how you feel, because I've gone through it, and still go through it, let me know. PM me, or w.e, and we can keep the discussion private