ETA

It's Friday after work, I'm out in the garden, there's a lovely breeze... Man oh man was it the perfect time to have a beer.

At that moment I had the overwhelming feeling that without alcohol I would never be happy again, that I would never feel complete, that I would forever be missing something. I was without hope.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and carried on with my project.

Flash forward and hour and a half - I realized that I had completely forgotten about drinking within seconds after my deep breath.

recoverywfaith

Excellent...glad you are here posting and sober.

MycoolFitz

Way to be aware! Those feelings come and go. You handled it well. A thought is not an action.

ajangel

I was out on my porch this morning when the sun came up, there was an amazing breeze. On day 18 today, I was thinking how great I felt and I can only imagine it is going to get better. And it will ETA. It will get better. Just wait til fall comes. Florida is amazing in the fall. We will be sober and enjoying it more. Great job on the deep breathing

Snicklefritz

Way to go! It gets easier each time.

Tuesday24

You did great fighting the urge

Anna

Good for you!

It's so important to know that you can get through those moments.

Zencat

Yep...urges come, don't attach on to them, then they go.

ETA

Each time this happens I take note. My goal is that during all those future moments where I will want to drink I will remember that everything will be fine without it.

The desire to drink was SO strong - it's really amazing that it passes - but it does pass. I'm on day 37 and it is getting easier - baby steps maybe but stil moving forward.

PS I'm so thankful for the people here. There are a good number of posts about sobriety being lonely - it really can be. This "place" is very comforting and the being here with all of you helps so much.