SoberRightNow

So here we are again, off another bender, back to day 1 again.

Thankfully made it to a really nice AA meeting last night and I think that I've finally started to listen with an open heart now and accept that I cannot drink at all.

God I hope so. This is killing me physically, mentally, spiritually. It's been hell.

So someone is kindly taking me to another meeting tonight and I'm hoping this can be the start of a proper recovery for me now. I've been reading Living Sober and got some good stuff from that.

I'm finding hanging out in the chat room here really helpful as well so thank you to everybody in this community.

God bless,

Paul

Anna

Hi Paul,

I hope you have a good day!

MsCooterBrown

Good morning Paul! I am glad to see you have NOT given up. Hope you have a peaceful sober weekend..

SSIL75

Have a great day, Paul!

Irishcolleen24

Hi Paul: I hope you continue with AA. I have met some of the most wise and funny folks there and have a ton of names and numbers to call when I need to talk and not drink. And I'm reading the Big Book and just got a sponsor. I am new to recovery and have many Day 1's, but with each one I know a little more about this disease and how sneaky it is. I can have just one...and say "see there, I can handle this", but the craving is in me and the next night I want to drink again an it becomes an inner battle...you want it, no I don't...and the dialogue in my head goes on and on. I'm so glad you are reaching out and someone is taking you to a meeting. It is just one day at a time for all of us. Be happy for One Day of sobriety and go from there. And turn it over to that which is greater than yourself to help you....whatever your spiritual belief is. Someone at a meeting the other day said her "higher power" is the people at the AA meetings. don't beat yourself up. Find the kindness and the compassion to love yourself, you didn't ask to have this disease. And I know, it sucks. but so it is. reach out and embrace the journey to a happier life for Paul.
God bless you.

lilac0721

Hi, Paul! Good for you for just getting back up and moving forward! I am on yet another day 2 myself. I stopped counting the day 1s. I also stopped beating myself up over them. Like IrishColleen said, we can learn a little bit from each one.

I hope this is your last day one! Glad you have a plan to get to another meeting!

CarolD

Welcome back Paul....

when I began my AA Steps I shifted from shakey sobriety
into solid recovery.....

Zebra1275

Glad you are going to an AA meeting tonight. This can be your last day 1.

Dee74

Welcome back Paul

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StPeteGrad

Read page 71 from Living Sober - it's about changing habits and routines - triggers for many of us.

Keep it up!

1undone

Hi there Paul! Welcome!

I love my AA peeps. They are some of the most caring, honest, genuine people I've met in a long time. They are not perfect nor am I but I've never felt more like I've been understood!

I hope you keep going and so glad you are here!

SoberRightNow

Thanks for all the comments. Wow, I actually slept seven hours last night - not bad for day two.

Lipitor

G day Paul.


My thoughts are with you .

Day one is always a good day . Better than being stuck on the merry go round.


All the best mate

L

jennybeth

Hi Paul, I wish you all the best towards success in your sobriety. It sounds like you're really suffering. Hope you feel better real soon!