My 4 day weekend, more or less.
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My 4 day weekend, more or less.
I've quit alot of times in the past 3 months. I keep trying to convince myself I can after 2-3 weeks drink again, cause I feel all happy and confident... and feel like celebrating my achievement! I'll go out planning to get sloshed just that one time. Each time I 'try' to just drink once, I take it WAY further than when I used to drink every day. I never thought I'd really consider stopping for 'good'. But I finally realize that's what I have to do.
After this 3 day weekend where I drank til 3am, got into some blow... my new gf who's a longer term recovering addict finally found out what I was doing and I paid her a $35 cab and ended up doing the same **** with me, til about 11am. Coming down off of all of it, we both went crazy and got in the craziest fight I've been in with a girl in many years....
Being depressed about everything I drank alone at my place without telling her about it until after the fact.... It's not the first time I've lied to my gf and only told her the day after that I had drank. She gets mad at me for lying, but my reason for not telling her is really that I don't want to influence her to drink/use, because she's said if she's with someone and they drink/use, she WILL want to also.
Anyways , I realize now that if I can even pull off drinking JUST once a month, and I actually think I possibly could, as stupid as that sounds. That one night, I'd lose my sanity after about maybe... 3 drinks and do the whole 'make up for lost time' and push myself to deathly limits.
Anyways, this is day 2 for me. I've been quitting without support, other than my new gf's enough times. I'm done for good, and that's why I'm here. I'm sure I will be at an AA meeting tomorrow night for the first time in a couple years.
After this 3 day weekend where I drank til 3am, got into some blow... my new gf who's a longer term recovering addict finally found out what I was doing and I paid her a $35 cab and ended up doing the same **** with me, til about 11am. Coming down off of all of it, we both went crazy and got in the craziest fight I've been in with a girl in many years....
Being depressed about everything I drank alone at my place without telling her about it until after the fact.... It's not the first time I've lied to my gf and only told her the day after that I had drank. She gets mad at me for lying, but my reason for not telling her is really that I don't want to influence her to drink/use, because she's said if she's with someone and they drink/use, she WILL want to also.
Anyways , I realize now that if I can even pull off drinking JUST once a month, and I actually think I possibly could, as stupid as that sounds. That one night, I'd lose my sanity after about maybe... 3 drinks and do the whole 'make up for lost time' and push myself to deathly limits.
Anyways, this is day 2 for me. I've been quitting without support, other than my new gf's enough times. I'm done for good, and that's why I'm here. I'm sure I will be at an AA meeting tomorrow night for the first time in a couple years.
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Welcome to SR usedtodrink 
I remember my life was pretty complicated too - it got a lot simpler when I removed alcohol and drugs from the equation
Good call on going to AA I think
Keep us updated
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I remember my life was pretty complicated too - it got a lot simpler when I removed alcohol and drugs from the equation
Good call on going to AA I think
Keep us updated
D
Glad you're here and congratulations on your decision to stay sober!
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