Flguy

I'm new here and I figured it was about time I start helping myself instead of making excuses to get upset and drink more. I started drinking when I was a teenager, but never truly had a problem until after I turned 21. Once it became easy for me to get I started drinking more and more every day. It started a few a night and before I knew it I was drinking at least a 6 pack everynight sometimes all the way up to 18 a day. I have always worked hard and never missed work because of my drinking so I kept telling myself I wasn't an alcoholic because I worked hard a deserved to cut loose. I also have severe back problems and the pain is horrible sometimes and drinking seemed to be the only way to stop it. Over the last three years I ruined my relationship with the girl I love, spent thousands on beer, and now jeopardized my job. I went drinking last week and drank to much at a sales outing and made a foul of myself. Not to mention I blacked out, and don't remember the last 3 hours of the night. I feel so sick to my stomach that I let my life get to this point... Mid 20s, living with mom because my girlfriend kicked me out and moved, and now throwing my careers down the drain. I finally have realized I have a problem and I'm here to turn my life around. Its sad because when I get upset about everything that's gone on I want to drink. It's been 48 hours and luckily I'm doing ok. I just hope more bad news doesn't come out of last week. I hoping I get a pass as I am trying to get help.

Dee74

Welcome Flguy

I think many of us fell into the cycle of drinking for stress relief or self medication - I also drank when I was happy, or bored, or sad...ended up I mostly drank cos I was awake.

You're wise to stop the cycle now. You'll find a lot of support and encouragement here.
Are you thinking of face to face support as well?

D

least

Welcome to our recovery family! YOu'll find lots of support and good information here. It's good you're giving up drinking at such a young age. You won't have a lot of regrets and bad memories when you get older.

kdr143

hey welcome
this site is great and has helped me
so much
I am 96 days sober today
you can do this
i hope you find a meeting in your town

Flguy

Thank Dee74. I've thought about it but right now I'm feeling ok. Once I found this site it was nice to see I could talk to others and relate to them about my problem. If I start feeling as though I may relapse I will probably go. I already know the location and time so I am preparing myself. Right now I am just doing a lot of reading and informing myself. I'm just hoping that everything that happened works out with no consequences. That was s real wake up call for me. It sucks that I've already thrown away so much before I realized my problem, but if I don't start now I'll go down a road that wont be good or that I may not survive.

Ghostly

Welcome Flguy!

coop1

Welcome Flguy, lots of great people here to help. Keep us posted on your journey.

mckats

Similar to you my drinking caused the demise of a meaningfull relationship.

-Sucks man but any excuse to stop whether it be work related, personal, or social is better than death from this disease

M

Flguy

Well tonight I have been sick to my stomach, but I can't tell if it's from not drinking or from my nerves because of my stupidity last week. Either way, I am glad I have made this decision. I have already talked to my family and they are very happy to hear it and gave me their support.