I'm learning....
6/20/08
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I'm learning....
...that it's really not all about me...and I am actually thankful for that!
Before I got sober, I was angry a lot. Every real and/or imagined thing in the world would send me on a rage......giving me an excuse to drink? Then I'd drink....sober up, rage for the excuse, drink, repeat...
Now....not so much. I have developed an inner peace....I know that sounds corny, but it feels so good not to have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I just let things go....as they should be.
Anyone else have this kind of 'peace' with sobriety?
Before I got sober, I was angry a lot. Every real and/or imagined thing in the world would send me on a rage......giving me an excuse to drink? Then I'd drink....sober up, rage for the excuse, drink, repeat...
Now....not so much. I have developed an inner peace....I know that sounds corny, but it feels so good not to have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I just let things go....as they should be.
Anyone else have this kind of 'peace' with sobriety?
I got it too or rather I should say more appropriately, "I'm working on it." I have read a lot about the Tao lately and am trying to learn to go with the flow of things instead of trying to resist everything constantly. The resistance is what was a major factor in my drinking. I do feel the peace you are talking about most definitely.
Hey Horselove I was reading the Tao De Jing yesterday as well... some really great stuff in there... Jerry there was no epiphany, I slowly started placing the pieces together... Best of luck
6/20/08
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Join Date: Sep 2008
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Jerry, so slooooooooooow, and like HL said, still working on it. I read a LOT. Came to SR a LOT. Knowing I wasn't alone in this was a huge help.
But now working on/with sobriety makes sense. I get why I didn't get it before...and that helps so much in my sobriety.
But now working on/with sobriety makes sense. I get why I didn't get it before...and that helps so much in my sobriety.
Anyone else have this kind of 'peace' with sobriety?
One of the neatest things I have found is the ability when I am right with myself and the world to be alone and at peace!!! When I was drinking being alone was a very bad place for me to be, the committee in my head would get in an uproar, my past whirling in my head, the anger, the resentments, the fears all flying around.
Peace, at first I did not recognize it because I did not know what it was, sometimes I viewed it as boredom because I no longer had any dramas going on in my life, then I began to realize that life drama free for the most part was not boring at all, it was peaceful. What I had sought in a bottle for so many years and never could find, I found in sobriety and applying the steps daily.
It is so nice to just be able to sit still, look around and listen.......
"One of the neatest things I have found is the ability when I am right with myself and the world to be alone and at peace!!!"
I could not have said this any better (Taz.)
I'm so very glad 4 U coffeenut! That 'inner peace feeling' rocks,
I could not have said this any better (Taz.)
I'm so very glad 4 U coffeenut! That 'inner peace feeling' rocks,
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Peace has come with the simplified living of life without drugs. I just keep doing the next indicated thing one day at a time.
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