That is true, and I am hoping that I will have a better grip on "friendship" as I recover. I just have not really had many friends that were not drinkers - I am sure that I avoided this because it isn't fun to be wasted and have to think about how you look to someone sober. So I have hand picked the partiers and they have rarely seen me sober. But over the years, I do think I have some real friendships in there. I hope I can be a bit of the same person...I hope I can still be fun just without the big dose of wildcard crazy.