four812

Things feel pretty good now; it wasn’t as nice just a few hours ago.

I saw that it was beautiful outside, springtime, and that I was not “missing it” as in years past, but I was uncomfortable and nothing could seemingly take that away. I wanted to use but hung in there and kept doing what I’ve been doing, and now it seems worth it. Sometimes it doesn’t feel good, it doesn’t feel worth it, but I’m continuing to practice “staying” with what is uncomfortable, whereas in the past I ran and hid.

I’m glad for the stuff that’s inside me right now, largely as a result of today’s part of my life.

Aysha

Great job K...Keep it up.
You are doing so good.
You dont ever have to go back to that evil again.

Toomutch

Enjoy the beautiful day ksplash!
Keep it beautiful... by not using.

coffeenut

How are you today, Ksplash?

Maggot4Life

Awesome stuff, feels so great when you don't give in to the awful temptation.

grateful2b

K, good for you for staying in the present! you worked it through...not an easy feat when we have spent so many years stuffing...and you deserve, you 'are' worth it...you post brightened my day!
:ghug3

grace33

Good for you!!! Ive had alot of hard days as im only 7 days clean. But sometimes it feels good to feel pain because at least now im feeling again, it makes me realize Im alive. Thanks for your post it made me stop and think and most of all smile. Its good to know we are not in this alone.

four812

yesterday started and ended up being a very nice day for me. i'm so glad i stayed clean. sometimes that's the most wonderful feeling to have in the morning, and often that's the case after making it through tough urges the day before. Other times it's nice simply because a moment of grattitude opens up the reality of my new life.

the worries and fears of last week are so far behind me. it's like a past life (which it really is). And now today I am here now and ready to move through the moments of my life. If I could be with every single breath I breathe today...that would be awesome. That won't happen, but if I can just be with a hundred of them that will be cool too.

Missymae737

Ksplash,

I am so glad you are doing well...

Doesn't it feel great that you accomplished something good for you?

You can do this!!!

Aysha

Stayin in the moment is awesome. I did that all day the other day and had the most enjoyable, peaceful evening.
You have come such a long way. You are an inspiration and showing me that it is possible to get and stay clean off that evil crap.
Like that feeling when you get locked up and know that nothing you do is goin tpo open those ghates until they are ready to let you go.
That is the most helpless, hopeless feeling in the world. My freedom is the worst thing that can be taken from me. Next to losing my family.
At times I feel like it is impossible to ever truly break free from crack. But you and Amy really and truly do make it very hopeful for me.
Keep it up.

Tazman53

I am glad you are not hear my friend!!!! It has been raining all stinking day!!!! Glad to hear you are in a good place and have rode it out again. Just stay in the day, sounds so simple, yet at times it can be hard.