dedubya

i have tried and tried and tried. i just was informed this week i dont have a job anymore, and it was a good one, 100k+. the office is closing so my loss isnt due entirely to my drunkeness. i drove by an AA meeting place today just to see where it is- and i plan to stop and go to a meeting (several) after i detox- which i surely will. rock and a hard place...how the crap did i get into all this. hope i can sleep tonight. time to start selling crap. but my harley is going nowhere.

Dub

Lenina

dedubya,

I'm always glad to see you, but sorry about your job loss. In a previous post you mentioned something about being in Venice, CA? If you need a detox, check out The Clare Foundation in Santa Monica. I believe it's free.

Love,

Lenina

Lenina

Here's the link: Clare Foundation - Detox Center

Amazonqueen522

Sorry to hear about your job loss,

:ghug

Dee74

I'm sorry for the job thing Dub - it seems like it never rains but it pours.
Sometimes tho I reckon we can make these things into something good....

Chase up that detox, man

D

Anna

Maybe losing your job at this time, is a sign that you need to take the time on your recovery and this is an opportunity for you.

I'm sorry about the job loss.

gerryP

Hey Ded,

yeah...I remember having a mere moment of clarity in my last year of drinking, where i said to myself ~ how in the hell did I get myself into this mess?" I had taken up drinking as a 24/7 job and treated my job as a hobby.

Well, never to soon to realize you're in a pickle, but good to hear you have a plan to execute. keep posting, get detoxed and start living.

shaun00

my friend......sorry to hear about the job....i hate walking past my pigeon hole at the moment......waiting for the brown evelope..or not.

"How the hell did i get into all this"........said it a few times to myself especially towards the end...Moments of clarity

The realization that it ain't me x wifes fault....or loss of job fault....or society's fault......this was about booze and me..

That awful space where i couldn't live with it or without it.....

I had a good job....good friends....good wife.....all the cars i could eat...
none of it sobered me up......by the time i did.....all the material stuff had gone.

I believe for me.....i had to loose it all....it was part of my bottom..
I'm not saying for a minute thats the same for everyone but for me i needed to hit the ground hard...

You probably know oxford.....they have a night shelter there for vagrants.
That where my drinking took me...if not a door way
If you didn't sleep with your shoes on they would get stolen and the beds were full of lice..no joke.

That was ten years ago......ive been sober for 8 and a half..

The answer to my dilema.........AA and the twelve step program...
i needed a program...i just couldn't manage sober without it and god i tried.
Buy a big book....read it....and read it again....get wrapped around people that live there lives according to the twelve steps..

i have no knowledge of other programs and self help groups but other people here are sober and happy using them too.

The main point I'm trying to get across is....just not drinking wasn't enough for me...i tried it...and got drunk time and time again.

Today life is different......and i am free.......i have no monkey on my back.
I'm married to a lovely wife.....red head so keeps me in line..lol..lol.
I'm working in a job i wanted to do since i was a kid.
i have two daughters...
All the material stuff has returned.........and life is good.

I also have a close relationship with god.....i couldn't do this without him...
But thats for me..

One foot in front of the other.......with a open mind and some willingness and your gonna be just fine.

time to open your arms to a new life.........enjoy it...........trucker.