back yet again
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Join Date: Jul 2007
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back yet again
found my password in my notebook and i'm here yet again.
clicked on my name and found out i joined in july 2007 then left. I know i came back here some time in 2008, looks like it ended in april of that year when i just went off the wagon till this month.
its good to be back.
I work two jobs still, seven days a week. A girlfriend i once had with an alcoholic father told me that that is the last to go. All the people have left the persons life, but if the money is still coming in.....drink, drink, drink. Nothing could be truer for me, solitary drinking for the past nine years, i thought i could drink freely without regrets when alone. That just doesn't work out either as much effort as i put into it.
Paid off my car a couple weeks ago. I still have massive debt from two credit cards. Around $16,000. All of it is nicotine and alcohol. 4 tins of chewing tobacco a day at $6 a tin, in lovely new york state, and a twelve pack of beer a day. I make around $8 an hour where i work at both places. I'm like a specialist at low paying menial jobs. Really good at them, and not worth much.
i'm mentally ill if anyone still remembers that, schizophrenia and depression, but that hasn't really been an issue in years, even though i dropped my anti-depressant in september because of the cost. My depression wasn't crippling most days, so i dumped it, the hallucinations were, so i've stayed on the med that takes care of those and have been functioning all along these days the best i could i guess.
hoping i finally outgrew all this here at age 37, and finally am putting it behind me. Failed quite often, but i guess it was needed then at the moment. Hopefully nevermore.
always liked here, you'll get used to me really quickly i'm really hoping.
Though i look at things differently.
good luck to all in the day ahead. God bless if you believe in that.
clicked on my name and found out i joined in july 2007 then left. I know i came back here some time in 2008, looks like it ended in april of that year when i just went off the wagon till this month.
its good to be back.
I work two jobs still, seven days a week. A girlfriend i once had with an alcoholic father told me that that is the last to go. All the people have left the persons life, but if the money is still coming in.....drink, drink, drink. Nothing could be truer for me, solitary drinking for the past nine years, i thought i could drink freely without regrets when alone. That just doesn't work out either as much effort as i put into it.
Paid off my car a couple weeks ago. I still have massive debt from two credit cards. Around $16,000. All of it is nicotine and alcohol. 4 tins of chewing tobacco a day at $6 a tin, in lovely new york state, and a twelve pack of beer a day. I make around $8 an hour where i work at both places. I'm like a specialist at low paying menial jobs. Really good at them, and not worth much.
i'm mentally ill if anyone still remembers that, schizophrenia and depression, but that hasn't really been an issue in years, even though i dropped my anti-depressant in september because of the cost. My depression wasn't crippling most days, so i dumped it, the hallucinations were, so i've stayed on the med that takes care of those and have been functioning all along these days the best i could i guess.
hoping i finally outgrew all this here at age 37, and finally am putting it behind me. Failed quite often, but i guess it was needed then at the moment. Hopefully nevermore.
always liked here, you'll get used to me really quickly i'm really hoping.
Though i look at things differently.
good luck to all in the day ahead. God bless if you believe in that.
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Alaska
Posts: 6
The first thing I did was smile when I read that you were back...and I don't even know you. It isn't about how many times you fall its all about getting back up! So welcome back!!!
whyquit.com helped me quit smoking. Maybe check that out.
Every morning I remind myself that I am powerless and then I let out a sigh and say Right on that God is there to do it for me!
Also, I went to college and ended up in a menial, lowpaying job because I love what I do!!!
U really can do this.......
whyquit.com helped me quit smoking. Maybe check that out.
Every morning I remind myself that I am powerless and then I let out a sigh and say Right on that God is there to do it for me!
Also, I went to college and ended up in a menial, lowpaying job because I love what I do!!!
U really can do this.......
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Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Fayetteville AR
Posts: 18
Welcome back, and congratulations on paying off your car! Sounds like you are a hard worker and I have a lot of respect for that - wish I could say the same about myself, but that's a whole 'nother story....
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