Aysha

I had a rough day today. It started out good. I was up at 5am. Couldnt go back to sleep. So I amde myself a cup of coffee and a bowl of oatmeal.
Sat and just relaxed and drank my coffe and ate my breakfast here at SR this morning. Got ready for work. Was grateful I wasnt called out. Today will make a whole 16 hrs I got in this week. This is getting really frustrating.
Got to work..I was ok until the boss lady is trying to hurry us up talking about we can only have so much time to a room. And we need to be out of there by this time. Well she isnt counting the time it takes to walk across the dam hotel and go up and down 6 different floors. Stocking our carts..running back an dforth for crap thats not where it should be. Not addint our breaks in. WTF??!! I told her in so many words as nice as I could be that this is a bunch of ****.
And she tried shorting me hours because she obviously had a hard time doing basic math. Changing time on my timecard. It took me 15 mins to explain to her that the time clock was behind an hour for 2 days. I felt liek smacking her in the back of the head to wake her up.

Got home...The kids are going friggin bonkers. I was coming out of my skull.
We went up to my aunts house for my lil cousins 6th bday party.
I just sat there for about an hour. Not really feeling like being in a house full of people and kids runnin crazy.

But I stopped and just started watching things around me.

The kids playing..Doing silly things. They started to make me laugh. Started talking to my cousins abotu stuff in general. We ate and I was just sat and watched some more.
I was watching how cute those kids are. How innocent and carefree they are. How funny and clueless they are.
I was watching how everyone was interacting. I stopped and just stayed there in that room. With everyone there in that very minute.
I was aware of my thoughts..my emtoions.
I made a point to be aware.
And it was the most content I have felt in so long.
It was just awesome. All the noise..the chaos..I didnt even notice it anymore.
I was just so happy to be there. To be a part of them. To be a functioning human being again.
It was like nothing else existed except what was going on in that house.

It was a good feeling. One I hope I can have more.

Anyway..Just wanted to share.

We are gettin ready for a supposed ice storm that is going to be pretty bad. Hopefully our power doesnt go out.

But if it does..We have each other.

Simple things. Its just the simple little things that make a difference.

stone

Being in the moment is the best thing there is Trish.

You have a way with words BTW.

TryingSoHard

Chiy, that totally and completely rocks. Thank you for posting this. I'm really happy for you and that you were able to just STOP and take it all in. It's a nice feeling, huh?

Aysha

Yes..It was like I could feel calm going all through my body.
Natural high. I do have alot of these moments.
And alot of times its hard to even put it into words.
But it just makes everything ok. Safe..and just..good.
I am so lucky to be where I am. The family I have. And the many chances I have been given.
I dont know what my purpose is in this world. But it's something.
I have always been forunate enough to be blessed with these things.
When its all said and done.
No matter what. I always have my family.
Thats some strong deep bonds there.

Lenina

Thanks for posting that! A nice reminder that sometimes just "being" is a good thing. It's really all about attitude, isn't it?

Love,

Lenina

coffeenut

"Its just the simple little things that make a difference. "

Well said.