Imtrying

I've been a mess mess lately, I'm a severe drunk, newly sober for 1 day. And I cant stop crying, I've lost everything and on the brink of losing my job, I had to quit. I cant live like this

Majamama

Hi Imtrying! Welcome.
What is your drinking pattern? What can you do to take your mind off alcohol?
-Majamama

CarolD

Welcome and Hug...

It's ok to cry....it's difficult to begin to be sober.
Is this your first attempt at stopping?

Please do keep posting with us

Imtrying

My drinking pattern is constant, when I wake up, at lunch breaks, when I get home... and repeat. I dont know what can take my mind off booze. I need to be on some heavy meds to start cuz I'm sweating really bad and shaking

Imtrying

I quit for six months once cuz I had to, I was getting **** tested, once the testing ended I went right back. I'm just scared of being homeless, people at work say they smell it on me

CarolD

It's always wise to see a doctor before trying to de tox.
You can also go to an ER or call 911 for assistance.

Be both safe and sober...de toxing is a medical situation.

least

Welcome to a loving supportive place! Do be safe while detoxing. Call a doctor or go to the ER for a bit of medical intervention to keep you at ease while withdrawing from alcohol.

I know staying sober can be done cause I did it/am doing it every day. I was a chronic relapser but finally managed to quit for good and have been building my sober days one day at a time.

It might help to stay sober by making a list of all the things you hate about drinking, all the negatives, to read over when you have the urge to drink.

Welcome again! Glad you found us!:ghug3

Imtrying

I cant affoard to miss work, its either continue drinking and get fired, or try to go through these withdrawel symptoms, I might drink some Nyquil

Imtrying

Thanx for the hug, I dont have a wife anymore, she left me cuz I'm a drunk, my gf of six months just broke up with me cuz I'm a drunk, all my friends are drunks so I cannot hang out with them anymore, I think I need to find Jesus at this point

jim11

Hey Nyquil, and Welcome to SR, Keep coming back, reading and Posting and i hope you feel better soon

CarolD

Here is information I do hope you will read

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

I too went to work smelling of booze...I know what you mean.
And yes..I did get fired for missing a day at work.
I was in an AA meeting the same day.

Do you have any sick leave or personal days at your job?

Imtrying

I need to give them a month advance to get any vacation, I cant take anymore sick days, one more and I'm fired

I'm getting scared about the withdrawel symptoms, my muscles are cramping up severely, just sweating buckets. I might have to drink

Imtrying

I read the link carol. I need to be in a hospital, but I'm scared of losing my job, I might have to continue drinking to not die. I just hate the fact that I brush my teeth, chew gum etc at work and people at work still say I wreak, I dont get it.

CarolD

I used to take 3 showers before work
and yet I did smell ...

Why? when you drink x aammount
and this x varies from person to person...

your body cannot process alcohol correctly.
It then trying to rid it's self of toxins by using the skin/pores.

Alcohol is a toxin. AAlso a depressant.

No one has to die from alcoholism at this point.
Getting sober is the way to start being healthy.

Yes! you too can recover...

Imtrying

Thank you, I'll try and get through this without missing work. Its the leg cramps that worry me most. Just unbearable pain. I have to get through this or I'm homeless, so I gotta deal with these first few days somehow, and try and not to much attention at work. The puking might be hard to hide though.

Hevyn

Imtrying - some people in your situation wouldn't even reach out for help or see that they had a problem. At least you've found us, and we can help. I was drinking round the clock too, in the end. At work I was very resentful that people started making comments. After all, I was armed with mouthwash & mints, eyedrops, saturated in perfume - how could they know? As said before, it comes through your pores. When I switched to vodka I thought that would help, but it didn't. If you drink enough of it there's no escaping the odor. Maybe that's good, though - maybe the fear and humiliation of being caught & the embarassment of being confronted with it is one of the things we both needed to help us see reality. (My 3 DUI's helped too...)

As miserable as I know you feel right now, this is where it can end. Fight for your life - everything can be turned around. I drank heavily for over 25 yrs. and I'm here to tell you it can be done. Love, Joanie

BackToSquareOne

Imtrying, any doctor can give you a prescription for some benzo's to help ease you through withdrawal. You can even try calling your doctor and explaining the situation and see if he'll phone in a prescription. Doctors deal with this kind of thing all the time, asking for help is nothing to be ashamed of.

The worst of the withdrawal will be over in 3 to 5 days but the PAWS symptoms can linger for months. The most common are anxiety,depression and insomnia.

bumble2008123

I went back and read your earlier threads. You have so much to be proud of.

Hevyn

Thank you, Bumble, I really appreciate that.

nickishine

I feel you, I'mtrying!

I'm a severe drunk too and was at the lowest point I'd ever been at just about 3 weeks ago! Detoxing was hell and all the emotions with it!... but life has gotten better, really! You haven't lost everything, YET! You still have your life and you are reaching out here to us -- that's a start. The next few days will be hell -- everything so fresh in your mind and it may be utter turmoil and hell at times!!!! There's no easy way to go through this. Just want a better life more than how you've been living it cuz it's waiting for you! You just gotta hang on minute by minute right now. If detoxing on your own is not working, call your Dr. or get into a clinic or something. There's meds out there to help with the shakes and anxiety that aren't narcotic.

Keep us posted. You are welcome here anytime!!! Look forward to reading more of your posts!!!

Hugs xoxox,
Nicki