August78

I'm 9 days sober and haven't an urge yet. I hope this lasts. The only thing is I've been strangely angry. Not fly off the handle at nothing angry, but, lately when people do something I don't like, I say so. When I feel wronged or disrespected where I would once let it go and not be too upset I now get a hot flare feeling in my gut and I almost lost my cool today and almost walked out of my workplace. I'm glad I didn't becasue I love my job. It literally keeps me alive. I don't know what's making me feel like this, I used to be so laid back. My friends once told me they've never met someone so laid back before and now I feel like an angry chained up dog. Someone back talked my friend when we were out playing pool and I actually walked up to that person and said excuse me? Did you just say what I think you said? And they immediatly (were shocked for one that I heard it) said oh no! I was talking about some one else. And I said "I certianly hope so". It felt so good. And that same night I had the guts to try line dancing infront of people!!!! And sang a song for my best friend infront of strangers. I never would have done any of this nine days ago drunk. I feel alive. I feel high. I feel awake. I feel aware. I just don't understand why I get so angry. It actually scares me. Everyone in my dui class said the high alive happy feeling will go away but I don't want it too. I love this! Being able to feel again, I will never lose this, I can't. It think if I ever lost this awakwe alive feeling I would die. I just wish I understood the anger. It's intense and I almost feel like I'm outside of myself watching myself go nuts. Well. That was a lot to get off my chest. I feel better.
August78

BUTTERFLY-7

Hy August78 I Luv your Screen Name My B-day is on August thats why

Now about what you are confronting is Normal you are going trough the
stages of Detoxing, your mind, and body and soul, so is natural your irrebility,
and Angry feelings, come from all that when we use to drink it use to simulate our
mind and supposedly Relaxes us.

so not having that one drink or what ever was your choice of stimulating your self
your system is acting out is a Process my advice to you is to see a Doct,
and tell him your situation, I'm pretty sure he could help you in a more Higher Level

I'm so sorry for what you are feeling and confronting but is part of Recovery remember we didn't Become Addict's over night,so we are not going to Recover over a day
take it Easy,One Day at a Time ,as they say B-Easy,Easy Do's it
I'll B:praying for you

littlefish

Hi there august: Anger is a big issue I have to work on. When I was drinking, I didn't give a CXXP about anything. Problems? I shrugged and just reached for another drink.
Wow, then I stopped and all of a sudden, oh, my, problems!

I'm still having blowups and trying to figure out how to let go, don't sweat the small stuff, but also how to recognise something that really is important.
I realized that I just sublimated a lot of stuff and now it is all there waiting for me to deal with it.
It takes time and quite a bit of thought. But, I feel pretty good about working with this "anger management" part of recovery.

CarolD

You may not be aware of PAWS
here is the information

Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center

Hope this helps and you continue moving forward

sailorjohn

Could be something as simple as the grieving process, trying to get over the loss of something that was such an important part of our lives. It sounds nutty, but I've heard it spoken of on many different occasions, alcohol being our constant friend and companion, that friend is gone. Admittedly, it wasn't much of a friend in the end but it was always there. Google Kubler-Ross for more info on the stages of grieving, and also be aware that is a messy, not necessarily linear process, we can go back and forth between the stages.