Is this what it feels like?
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Originally Posted by chiynita 
I am having some serious anger issues this weekend. I am being tested something fierce right now. Not only with my sobriety. But with my anger and tolerance.
a little clip of your share just to say you knowing that about yourself, in your heart, shows your in great shape for all your struggles. i am sad for your nephew. that **** makes us all wonder wtf.
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Trish hang in there, find a quiet place and simply ask that you be given further strength to get through this. Staying clean and sober right now is the most important thing you can do right now. Feeling feelings is something I had a hard time dealing with early in sobriety, it takes time to learn how to deal with them. It takes time to learn that there are many things in life that happen that I have no control over and to accept that there is nothing I can do to change some things. Being angry is not a good place to stay, talk it out here and with others you can talk to, stay calm as possible and seek peace, accept that there are things in this world that we have no control over and do not let them control you.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the knowledge to know the difference.
Trish you know as well as I do that drugging or drinking will not change any of these things, the only thing that drugging and drinking will do is change you.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the knowledge to know the difference.
Trish you know as well as I do that drugging or drinking will not change any of these things, the only thing that drugging and drinking will do is change you.
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
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Well me and gram finally got to talk today.
She apologised.
I didnt bring it up. She did.
And I told her I hope it doesnt become a habit and that it affects my sobriety too.
She sounded like she really meant it.
I know she doesnt like to drink either.
So we are all good. And on the same level of understanding.
She did however...like I said she would.
Throw my addiction in my face.
But I cut that off before it got anywhere.
Like Pinkcuda said.
I am sure just like any other time.
It is just a once in a great while thing.
I hope.
As for my nephew..Havent heard anything.
I dont talk to my sister or my dad. So I get my info through my gram.
My internet was shut off yesterday.
So I wont be on as much.
Only when I can get to my aunts house.
I dont like being in her house when nobody is here.
Even though I have never done anything and never would.
I dont think they feel too comfortable either.
So you know...Just taking it moment by moment.
Thank you so much everyone for being there.
I did make it through a very very hard test of my will these past few days.
I dont think of it as a victory.
It just is what it is.
I am so grateful I didnt go.
Anyway.
See you guys when I can.
She apologised.
I didnt bring it up. She did.
And I told her I hope it doesnt become a habit and that it affects my sobriety too.
She sounded like she really meant it.
I know she doesnt like to drink either.
So we are all good. And on the same level of understanding.
She did however...like I said she would.
Throw my addiction in my face.
But I cut that off before it got anywhere.
Like Pinkcuda said.
I am sure just like any other time.
It is just a once in a great while thing.
I hope.
As for my nephew..Havent heard anything.
I dont talk to my sister or my dad. So I get my info through my gram.
My internet was shut off yesterday.
So I wont be on as much.
Only when I can get to my aunts house.
I dont like being in her house when nobody is here.
Even though I have never done anything and never would.
I dont think they feel too comfortable either.
So you know...Just taking it moment by moment.
Thank you so much everyone for being there.
I did make it through a very very hard test of my will these past few days.
I dont think of it as a victory.
It just is what it is.
I am so grateful I didnt go.
Anyway.
See you guys when I can.
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Join Date: Dec 2007
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Trish, I am so glad you and your Grams worked it out and good job on the boundaries..
I am sorry that you lost your internet..you need SR and we need you.
.I am thinking , do you have a community non-profit dialup service in your area...We have one here called Freenet and it is about $5. a month...if you could find something like that and pick up a second-hand 56k modem....hugs, Grateful
I am sorry that you lost your internet..you need SR and we need you.
.I am thinking , do you have a community non-profit dialup service in your area...We have one here called Freenet and it is about $5. a month...if you could find something like that and pick up a second-hand 56k modem....hugs, Grateful
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Join Date: Mar 2007
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Hey guys..Just checking in.
Well..I am very lucky.
I really must have some good connections in the karma department.
Because I will have my internet back by Tuesday.
Cable and phone by Monday.
I just switched companies and low and behold. I was approved for all 3 services with no money deposit.
Even through a credit check. And they even waived a couple handling fees that needed to be paid right then by debit or credit. Which I have none of.
Talk about getting hooked up.
I found that I am very bored with no internet. And everyone gone at camp.
I was trying to remember today what it was we did with our time before internet. LOL.
Anyway. All is good.
Nephew is better. Found out sisters now ex BF was in quite a few mental institutes whole back. His mother is sending documents on that. I dont know if that is a good or bad thing.
Anyway..I will see you guys in a few days.
Well..I am very lucky.
I really must have some good connections in the karma department.
Because I will have my internet back by Tuesday.
Cable and phone by Monday.
I just switched companies and low and behold. I was approved for all 3 services with no money deposit.
Even through a credit check. And they even waived a couple handling fees that needed to be paid right then by debit or credit. Which I have none of.
Talk about getting hooked up.
I found that I am very bored with no internet. And everyone gone at camp.
I was trying to remember today what it was we did with our time before internet. LOL.
Anyway. All is good.
Nephew is better. Found out sisters now ex BF was in quite a few mental institutes whole back. His mother is sending documents on that. I dont know if that is a good or bad thing.
Anyway..I will see you guys in a few days.
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(((Trish)))
I'm having to send my laptop back to the factory, so I will have less internet time, too. I can use dad's computer, but only if he isn't here or my niece. I don't remember what I did before internet (and SR) but I think I read a lot of books...may need to get them out for the next week or so.
Glad you and Grams talked and that your nephew is doing better. YOU are doing awesome!
As far as the hookup on the cable/internet....I don't know, but it seems the more I work at my recovery and trying to do right, some things just seem to work out better than I ever anticipated. I don't know that one has anything to do with the other, but I think being grateful for things just opens us up to more good. Besides, you needed something good after the week you've had!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
I'm having to send my laptop back to the factory, so I will have less internet time, too. I can use dad's computer, but only if he isn't here or my niece. I don't remember what I did before internet (and SR) but I think I read a lot of books...may need to get them out for the next week or so.
Glad you and Grams talked and that your nephew is doing better. YOU are doing awesome!
As far as the hookup on the cable/internet....I don't know, but it seems the more I work at my recovery and trying to do right, some things just seem to work out better than I ever anticipated. I don't know that one has anything to do with the other, but I think being grateful for things just opens us up to more good. Besides, you needed something good after the week you've had!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy
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No IOP yet. My dad came over yesterday and started working on my cousins car.
Me and her are going to camp tonight. Hopefully he has it fixed by Monday.
Not sure tho. I have alot of appointments this coming week anyway. So she may need to use my aunts car.
Plus she dont get home until 5:30. I start FT this week and have to be to work at 5.
I have court Friday.
This has been dragging out since Last May.
I am going to take the plea. I am very very nervous.
But at least it will be over.
Anyway..See everyone when I get back.
Me and her are going to camp tonight. Hopefully he has it fixed by Monday.
Not sure tho. I have alot of appointments this coming week anyway. So she may need to use my aunts car.
Plus she dont get home until 5:30. I start FT this week and have to be to work at 5.
I have court Friday.
This has been dragging out since Last May.
I am going to take the plea. I am very very nervous.
But at least it will be over.
Anyway..See everyone when I get back.
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I am with you in my heart....if I could be there with you when you go to court I would be there! I think you know how many of us here are there for you so just close your eyes and envision us and the new sober you...right by your side!!!!!!
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