jodyjody

..but would those of you who have clean time tell us what is better in your life now. What things you were so happy to leave behind and what things are better than ever now. I really really need to hear it now
thank you

Klynn33

I'm glad to have left behind the crappy financial situation I was in. And the extreme sickness I would have if I didn't have a pill. so long to the days of phoning and driving around trying to find my "friends" (AKA - dealers) no more lying, denial, excuses, and oh so much time that I wasted. not to mention the state of health...........body and mind.

NOW? I have a great job - I have actual friends. I spend WAY more quality time with my kids - I ENJOY things again - I hadn't been able to do that in a long time. I love being able to buy new things, and think about saving for future things. Hell, it even makes me feel good to pay off old bills, because at least now I can. I feel NORMAL again. I don't remember a LOT of those 2.5 years. and that's scary. There's a lot of people who pass away for various reasons before they should and I'm grateful that I am still here and have the chance to actually LIVE. The way I was spending my time before was certainly not living.

I know telling you this may not mean much - it didn't when others told me back when I was still using - but maybe since you're on this site, you're a little smarter than I was
keep going - but don't put too much thought right now into what has happened, or what's going to happen in the future. It will drive you insane. focus on getting through today - the rest will fall into place later...........

have a great night!

Daddio

Thanks for asking Jody squared.

Today is day 606 for me BTW. I have aquired a clarity that I never knew existed. My senses are so heightened. It's like for the first time nothing is tainted by the booze induced fog. Life is just so clean.

I think about booze all the time. I think about sex all the time as well. That doesnt mean that either are gonna happen. LOL I've tried to tell others here at SR to just quit dwelling on having a cocktail. Think about other things. Read about The String Theory, make model gliders. Walk outside tonight and look at the Moon. Anything. That is what sobriety has allowed me to do.

There's more, but I might get kicked off the site. Big WINK and GRIN.

jodyjody

Thank you so much. I read your post three times. I am still using but on a taper soooo....feeling like crap. And tapering is such a mind ****!
I'm so happy that you are enjoying all those wonderful things. What an inspiration.

jodyjody

Wait...don't model gliders require GLUE?????!!!

Dee74

I don't have much more money, I'm not smarter or more gifted.
But I like who I am, and I like being alive.

That's a big plus.

Good luck - and welcome
D

Daddio

They sure do. But you gotta use the kind that we made in grade school with flour and water. So if it doesn't work out - make a roux................

Klynn33

well said Dee.

jodyjody

how the hell do you know what a roux is! are you one of my french cousins? That's so funny!!!!

jodyjody

thank you dee. i love that.

LogCabin

The sun shines brighter.

Laughter is in my life again.

I can sit in a room of complete strangers and enjoy thier talking. And more importantly...I feel a part of something. The love is strong.

I can jump out of bed and start moving, and being a part of life.

I'm not afraid of the phone, and the doorbell.

I'm trusted to drive a car again, and I can crank the radio up, and sing, sing, sing to my heart's desire.

My memory is far better. I can finish a thought.

I look so much better.

Cloths are fun. Make-up is fun. Earrings are fun.

I can read a book and understand it.

I can feel LOVE again. I can feel happiness again. And I can feel pain and sadness without the world caving in.

I can smell the flowers and the trees.

I can live in the moment, and feel calm.

I don't ever want to go back to the destruction and depression of addiction.

jodyjody

Thank you with all of my heart for that Log Cabin. I'm weeping and smiling...and want to put that on my fridge. God, I needed to read that.

Daddio

Well, every good ole Southern boy knows how to make a roux. And besides, I studied Culinary Arts at the Art Institue in Atlanta. Hey, you can come eat at my new little bistro that I will opening in a few weeks. And bring your French cousins (the girl ones that is). LOL

coming_clean

I feel better in general,
more energy, (not to be mistaken with anxiety)
healthier, better looks,
stronger person,
easier to say no
i laugh more,
able to buy more nice stuff,
able to boost the savingsaccount
new genuine friends
better sleeping pattern
better digestion
capable of giving more love
capable of receiving more love
self-acceptence
more focussed
doing my job better, building a career
less irrational fears and thought-patterns
less guilt
less anger
a more realistic view on life

wauw it's good to be sober!

thank you asking this of me!

jodyjody

so happy that i asked this. thank you. i will read this again as soon as i wake up.

Klynn33

this was a great thread Jody2

awesome to hear how things have changed for people.
It's nice to remind ourselves of these things sometimes....

LogCabin

You're welcome Jody. I truly do love being clean and sober over being sick and SICKER.

I'm still pulling myself out of my financial problems...but I feel much better moving up instead of down, and deeper.

My kids tell me they love me again. My Mom tells me she loves me. They are all talking to me again.

have sweet dreams, and tomorrow is a brand new day to be you in the here and now.


One other thing I am glad about is that if there is ever an emergency...I can react, and help. I can get out of myself and think of others.

tlrgs

it all sum up to one word / my life / well two lol

benjiboy

Hi Jody,
I love being able to get excited about the future...even if that future is just the day ahead of me...rather than waking up terrified and trying to hatch plans as to how to avoid certain people...and when i get up and look in mirror i see someone whom I like and am proud of...however good you think sobriety will make you feel, multiply it by ten.
Life is great....I feel so privlidged to have mine back...there is no way i'm going to take it for granted again and use it like a floor cloth.
Ben x

Rusty Zipper

a clear head, and its even level headed at times...

and a clear soul!