My Mark

I am such an antisocial person! I have a wonderful friend in AA, (just celebrated her 18th bday!) and I just can't seem to go. I see all the wonderful comments, and she is wonderful too, but eh, getting me out of my house (rather off my property) is a pretty tough endeavor even when I didn't drink.

Then I found this place! This is a great place from what I can see. I know it won't hurt, and I am hoping it will help as much as I need it to.

Anyway, I decided to join though I haven't done a "practiced" sober day yet. I can't, or wont or I don't really know. I just know it is REALLY starting to eat at me.

Just thought I would say hey. At least for now. I have a million questions, but I guess I will save them for later.

Anna

Hi Mark,

Welcome!

I'm glad you found us and yes, this is an amazing place. It is my lifeline and I always find inspiration here.

My husband once asked me if I couldn't or wouldn't quit drinking and I have to admit, it was some of both. I was so scared.

Keep reading and posting.

1963comet

Nice to meet you and welcome to SR.

Yes this is a perfect place to get questions answered. And there is people that either can't leave their house or have a hard time getting anywhere.

So ask away and hope to see you here.

My Mark

Thanks, it is terribly scary!

Now that I have read about detoxing too, *cringes*...I am terrified of that hell!!! As if this isn't anyway...

My boyfriend will probably be my biggest support, if I can EVER get the courage to ask. Sounds bad, maybe it's like the AA thing, I will feel accountable to someone besides just me. He just has SO much already on his plate, and to take on this too...

So, I guess I can put some of it here and get stronger until I can truly bring him on board.

Anna

Have you talked to your dr, because detoxing from alcohol can be dangerous.

And, it's great to have your boyfriend's support, but remember, this is about you.

Astro

Welcome to SR, My Mark! This is a great place for asking questions and sharing your experience.

Open AA meetings can be pretty fun and friendly places, the one I attend every night is filled with the sounds of laughter and happiness. We call it "the music of AA".

Hope to hear more from you!

My Mark

hehe, I just read that, and it looks kinda funny...I am a woman, 2 kids, and 2 step kids, and my "new little guy" (I guess he is my step kid too), because he is my boyfriends kiddo.

My Mark, was because, I lost one of the closest friends I ever had to suicide, and he fought this battle and lost...I don't want to be there. Though, it's been 2 years since he left.

I was on another forum (still am) that had a thread for addictions, but it was no help, I just got (for lack of a better word) creamated there by people who never dealt with this. So, I just shut up, went on doing what I was doing but had learned to be a bit more secretive.

Why don't the non alcoholics get it? Is it because THEY DO have control?

My Mark

Hi every one.

To Anna, no, I haven't talked to my Dr about it. I don't know that I would have those terrible withdrawal symptoms. I currently drink about 2-3 18 packs a week. Getting to the doc is kinda like getting me off to a meeting!!!

I have gone 3 or 4 days with out, because I couldn't afford it, and I just sleep alot. B complex, and alot of water usually pull me through those times...Pretty messed up huh? 4 days, and just go back to it....