Aysha

Everyone seems to have problems with letting go of the past. But mostly in a negative way. Things they have done as a result of their addiction.
I dont have a problem with letting go in that sense.
I have a problem with letting go of the fun times using.
I find myself thinking of the fun crazy times and thinking about my using friends and some of the funny things or crazy things that we did that made it fun.
I think maybe that has alot to do as to why I keep using now.
It hasnt been fun in years. But i think I am still looking for that fun.
I know it will never be the same.
I know it is a problem.
But I had some of my best times when I was doing these things. And believe it or not met some of the best friends.
Not many but a few.
I find myself thinking about them and wishing it was like it use to be.
It had its consequences..But it was a good time.
Now its just a big chaotic mess.
I dont want to use even if it was fun like it was... because I lacked responsibility and put myself in some dangerous situations.
But I just cant help to think about back in the day alot.
How do you stop.
Maybe I feel like I am missing something.
I dont know.
I just wish I could let go of it all.
Sometimes I cant get to sleep because these are the thoughts that are in my mind when I try.
Then I get anxiety and get to missing them.
And here I am.
Cant sleep trying to forget.

GlassPrisoner

There's no romance left for me & booze. Good bye, good riddance, don't let the door hit you in the a** on the way out.

Remember your last drunk, does that help ?

Aysha

Actually I dont remember alot of my last time using because I was rushed to a hospital.
That should be enough.
And it is not so much the using that was fun. It was the time spent with my friends.
If that makes any sense.
Probably doesnt.
Even the times before my addiction.
I like to live in the good times from the past.
I dont know...Might just be me.

citychick

Make new friends in AA or NA or whatever 12 step program you go to. I believe what you think about a lot, you will eventually do, so maybe check the thinking.

Rowan

When I'm obsessing, and remembering my addiction as a 'good time' - I'm only lying to myself. So I pray - certain prayers over and over, and I ask God, repeatedly, to remove the obsession to drink or use from me.
Ask God for help, Trish.

xoxo R

Rusty Zipper

chiy one can have fun without useing... bottom line chiy...

for me, it was all i knew... i know different now...

for petes sake, theres that pete guy again... maybe hes a roomy...lol... let it go chiy!

and as GP mentioned... dont let the door hit you in the (_chiy_) when do'n it...

its real doable, just one has to do it...

lights, camera... "Action"... roll um!

stil wish'n you all the best our chiy...

xxoo, (_rz_)

Dee74

yeah Chiy letting go of the romance was a BIG one for me..spent so long looking for that first buzz again...took me years to realise I was chasing a fantasy...and I know it was a fantasy cos I look at my drinking buds now...they're still doing *exactly* the same things...heck, even the same jokes but there's *nothing* good about it....

D

Rusty Zipper

aunt dee yep, even the same music... if i had to hear brown sugar one more time... i'd puke

"stuck on stuck!"

classysista

even in the bible it talkes about sin.. and sure its good for a season. anything is .. for me for example sex was my drug of choose and who doesnt enjoy that? the thing is the good time with the good people (i thought of at the time anyway) just dont last .. after the sex is over what do you have left... so i line my self up with the word of God and relize that wow i can actaully block Gods blessings in my life by enjoying the plesures of this world the so called "here and now" instead of holidng out for Gods. best.. i have been celibate for a year and seven month... and i do think about the good old times but i reliaze its not worth goin back to it to loss my soul. God bless you and just remember temptation does not come from the Lord and everyone in the world is tempted what really matters is what you do with that thought of temptation when it comes to mind cast all your cares on Jesus and remember greater is he that is in you then he that is in the world

Anna

I think Chi, that it's your addict voice, that is telling you to remember the fun times. It wants to take control and send you back out seeking that 'fun' which in reality, probably wasn't that great anyways. Recognize the addict voice for what it is. And, then make a choice to search for fun things to do in other ways. Find things in life that bring you joy.

Aysha

Yea..You all right. Because if I take away the drugs. Those times would have been very different.
My addict voice likes to talk to much.
Thank for your posts.
I need to find a mussle for that voice.