Laceyhearts

It seems a bit unreal that I am still sober. I truely believed I would relapse within a short time of stopping drinking. That was my usual pattern and I never made it past the first week. I did have 5 months sober in the early part of 06, but I never felt good during that time and the struggle was almost unbearable. I constantly obsessed about alcohol. This time it's different. No obsessions. I wake up rested with no help of sleep aids. I am taking a newer anti-depressant that I believe to be the key to my sobriety. With it I am able to keep focus on the things I have to do daily. I don't feel drug out and my racing thoughts have stopped. I am able to see things clearly on a daily basis.
Since my sobriety I have seen the trust of my husband, mother and 2 of my 3 children returning. They even tell me I am pleasant to talk with and be around. My husband has seen that I am able to follow through on whatever I am doing. My friend says I have color in my cheeks and a sparkle in my eye. And one of the better things of my sobriety is that my son is coming to visit. My son and I were very close and then he joined the. I felt like he joined to get away from me, not to better his life. I was there for his graduation and cherished the very short time I got to spend with him. 9 months ago we got into an argument, while I was drunk, and our relationship took a horrible turn for the worst. He came back into my life in April, while I was hospitalized. He now knows that he can call me and I will be sober and that if I call him, I'm not drunk. Before his plan was to come here to Cheyenne and spend his 2 week leave with his sister and friends. Now he says he can't wait to have some one on one time with me. I am so proud of him and tell him that as often as I can. Tomorrow I get to tell him that in person.
I keep finding reasons to be sober and it feels great. I realized now how very blessed I am in my life. Being drunk all the time, I never saw the good in life. I never wish to go back to that point in my life. Thanks for letting me share.....
Laceyhearts.....

stone

Thanks Lacey, what a lovely thing that is about your son! I am so happy for you.
Well done on your sober time too.

Aysha

Great post Lacey.
Glad your doing so good.
Keep it up.

ontrackagain

Thanks Lacy.

I too have had streaches of sobriety. not near 5 months though! I think that is helping you find your way a little differently now. I am looking forward to day 30. Congrat's. Good Work with your son. He sounds like a forgiving and patient young man. 2 qualities that our society doesn't cherish much anymore. you should be proud of him.

CarolD

Simply awesome what we are blessed with in sobriety!


Congratulations and thanks for sharing your joy!

A special hug for your son
what a fine young man.

Anna

Lacey, that is wonderful!

Great photo!