"If you keep on doin' what you always did...
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"If you keep on doin' what you always did...
You're gonna keep on gettin' what you always got."
This seems to be a more down to earth version of the definition of insanity that many of us are familiar with. Many of our newcomers write that they just don't know why they keep getting drunk/stoned/high/etc.
What I found with my alcoholism is that if I didn't take action to change what I was doing, nothing was ever going to change with my situation. Now that it's been a while since I got sober, I find this also applies in my daily living.
When I was drinking, I would promise myself on many occasions that I wasn't going to get drunk that night. I was just going to have a few and get mellow. Invariably I always, and I mean always, went way too far and ended up wondering what happened.
I would wake up the next day hungover, very upset that I could not maintain my resolve to just have a few. Even when my wife would ask me to only have two drinks instead of the usual bottle, I would honor her request by finding the biggest container I could find and fill it halfway up with bourbon and the rest with coke. I did only have two, as she requested, but the two that I had were equal to the bottle that I normally had. And I was sooooo proud of myself for doing what she had asked me to do.
So, the key is doing something different. Doing what isn't normal, doing what doesn't come naturally, doing something I never expected I could do. What is it?
Being honest, openminded, and willing.
This seems to be a more down to earth version of the definition of insanity that many of us are familiar with. Many of our newcomers write that they just don't know why they keep getting drunk/stoned/high/etc.
What I found with my alcoholism is that if I didn't take action to change what I was doing, nothing was ever going to change with my situation. Now that it's been a while since I got sober, I find this also applies in my daily living.
When I was drinking, I would promise myself on many occasions that I wasn't going to get drunk that night. I was just going to have a few and get mellow. Invariably I always, and I mean always, went way too far and ended up wondering what happened.
I would wake up the next day hungover, very upset that I could not maintain my resolve to just have a few. Even when my wife would ask me to only have two drinks instead of the usual bottle, I would honor her request by finding the biggest container I could find and fill it halfway up with bourbon and the rest with coke. I did only have two, as she requested, but the two that I had were equal to the bottle that I normally had. And I was sooooo proud of myself for doing what she had asked me to do.
So, the key is doing something different. Doing what isn't normal, doing what doesn't come naturally, doing something I never expected I could do. What is it?
Being honest, openminded, and willing.
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Oh yes I did the whisky in a pint glass trick and also when asked "try and have just one bottle tommorrow" i'd oblige but instead of taking a Litre home i'd buy a Litre & 1/2 bottle, if challenged i'd say " they must have sold it me by mistake".
Insane alcoholic thinking for sure but at the time I was powerless to do anything else.
But today, thankfuly i'm teachable and willing to change, I am honest in all areas of life and in bieng so I dont have to hide guilt in the bottom of a bottle.
chris
Insane alcoholic thinking for sure but at the time I was powerless to do anything else.
But today, thankfuly i'm teachable and willing to change, I am honest in all areas of life and in bieng so I dont have to hide guilt in the bottom of a bottle.
chris
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