justsomeguy

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So... OK.

Long laundry list of problems... Drugs, plenty.. but they were never an issue... i did probably a little too much speed at one point, and then quit... right away.. I turned to alcohol (I know clynically typical). Been drinking heavily for about 6 years... VERY HEAVILY... I'm successful... only because I have my own business, and can take off whenever I need to be a drunken fool at home... but this is not going to last at this pace....

I try to quit, over and over... I'm ok after like 4 days... then it's no problem.. always some event that I think I can handle gets me drinking again within 3 weeks.

Anyway the point to the post... I hate alcohol, I never liked it.. I don't have a favorite drink it all disgusts me.. it did before, it does now.. but I drink like a fish.. .

The only time I ever really want to quit... is when I'm drinking... when I'm sober.. I think.. it won't hurt anything.. even though I know better.

How do I get this through my head... I don't like the 12 step approach, I'm considering trying to get antabuse, or something.. I just want it to not be an option to drink anymore, I'm SOOOO much more productive SOBER!

drinking wine at home today.. again.... "shakes head at self"

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CarolD

I don't know if you have seen this or not
but see if this helps explains

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html

Hugs and Blessings

Anna

Hi and Welcome,

You're experiencing the addiction to alcohol taking over your life. The disease makes you believe, that after a few weeks sober, you'll be fine to drink again. You need to learn to recognize the voice of addiction and to ignore it. I could get through 3 days and then fall again for a long time. For me, it took really making a change in my daily routines. For example, go shopping at a different store, drive home a different way, whatever you think will work for you. Plan to be busy doing something else when you would have been drinking.

There are lots of recovery methods (thanks to CarolD for the info):

Alcoholics Anonymous
http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org/?Media=PlayFlash

LifeRing Secular Recovery
http://www.unhooked.com

SMART
http://www.smartrecovery.org/

SOS - Secular Organisations for Sobriety
http://www.secularsobriety.org

Women for Sobriety
http://womenforsobriety.org/


Information and analysis about addiction treatment and harm reduction:

http://www.peele.net/

A useful AA reference:
Online AA resources (not official AA):
http://www.recovery.org/aa/

Moderation Management, the one group that deals with moderate drinking; useful for the guidelines:
http://moderation.org/

Some variations on 12 Step:

Agnostics AA:
http://agnosticaa.org/

Alcoholics Victorious (Christian 12 step):
http://www.alcoholicsvictorious.org/12-steps.html

Pagan approach to 12 steps:
http://members.aol.com/JehanaS/recovery.html

Another Christian recovery site:
http://www.celebraterecovery.com/message.asp

Rabbi Twerski's interpretation of the 12 Steps from a Jewish perspective:
http://www.a-1associates.com/AA/jacs_journal_2.htm


Phone Contact...

The National Drug and Alcohol Treatment Referral Routing Service available at 1-800-662-HELP. This service can provide you with information about treatment programs in your local community and allow you to speak with someone about alcohol problems

MaligenRoculus

I am afraid of feeling, sensation, and reality to some extent. It seems that I have passed through a barrier of some sort. This didn't take long after I realized that my happiness is a result of my attitude, or relative control over my impulsive actions. maybe wanting to escape from something is the issue. It was for me.

UncleEarl

Ummm...because you're a drunk?

Speaking for my own alcoholic self, been there, done that. I used to love my two or three sober-days, then revert back to my miserable drunkenesss. It took a surrender, a realization that I have NO control over alcohol, for me to extend those sober-days into a lifestyle.

Spend a few days reading through the threads here and perhaps elsewhere. I suspect you will be able to empathize with a lot of experiences and hopefull shed some light on the incidious nature of our addiction.

Hope you keep posting!

Earl

nogard

welcome to SR

GlassPrisoner

I'm gonna quit tommorrow. I SWEAR I am

or

God, please, just get me out of this one mess.

or

God, please, make it stop. I'll NEVER drink again, I swear.

Finally

God, just make it STOP ! One way or the other......