laurience

The anxiety I felt before going out wondering if I would lose control and if I could keep it together. Praying I would keep it together.
Joanne

Valeria

Not picking my kids up because I had passed out....

German69

I'm on day one again and I sure as heck can do without:
-Hangovers (feeling like you're going to pass out all day long whenever you get up)
-Not knowing what you said or did and whom you spoke with in the first place
-Blackouts
-Beating up my husband
-loud arguments in front of the kids
-$$$ spent on beer and other stuff while drunken
-terrible depression and guilt after a binge
-doing all that damage to my body, mind and spirit
-moving away from religion to justify the gluttony
-drunken sex with hubby and not remembering anything
-not being able to dream because you didn't really sleep, you were passed out.
-drunk driving
-rage and insanity:uzi2:

Bubba91

Things i am not going to miss is the money spent foolishly, stupid behavior that has that remorseful feeling in the morning, hangovers, trouble i was getting into, that drinking when ya need that hair of the dog early in the morning and being drunker at noon and past out at 12:30 in the afternoon. Hey just my 2 cents worth.

liiise

Bump

zilla1

Great posts. Hate to say, i've probably done just about every one of these things. Makes me stay focused on staying sober that much more.

I'mready99

Great thread...

I'm only on day two, but I can relate to many things stated here...

I believe mentally hurting my wife and making her lose respect for me is the worst...

And of course, the "Big Head" the next morning isn't fun either...

Have a GREAT weekend everybody...

One day at a time.

Steve

Hanzade

All of the above...plus hiding drinking.

Acting like I am a normal, wonderful wife and a mother when I have this big secret inside.

scootinbabe

--losing the respect of others

--losing any respect i may have had for myself

scootinbabe

--drinking while with people i love who also love me--but drinking because "heck i'm not worth loving"

--waking up realizing that, once again, i lost control the night before, and could not remember very important celebrations of my family life. should-be-cherished memories that are now lost to me forever in an alcoholic haze.

Huzzah

- running hungover (im in the army)

- yelling and still feeling a need to talk close to people at partys

- completely blacking out and not remembering where i was or how i got home the night before

- causing physical damage (punching holes in walls, etc) for no apparent reason

- doing stupid things at the bar and getting into a fight as a result

- feeling like i am superman so i think i can do things that just injure myself

liiise

i don't miss bumping in to someone whom I met at a party but of course I don't remember them and they know a little too much about me

nogard

peeing myself

nogard

pooing myself

nogard

waking up lying in it

nogard

being broke
debt collectors
vomitting
headaches
the fear
voilent outbursts
being alone
being a member of the walking dead
the misery (no i do not want it back)

liiise

wow nogard thanks for sharing

laurience

Wasting time being drunk when I could of spent precious time with family and friends and not even remembering.
Joanne