collingwood

I tried to not use starting Tuesday but I didnt' make it. I feel so bad about it. I got upset over something that I found out about my partner joining what looks like a dating website and listing themselves as single. I found out by accident. Instead of getting on this board (I don't have phone numbers of people to call yet) I did what I always do and I used. Each time I make a promise to myself and then fail I feel like I'll never get clean. I don't know what's its going to take but I'm not giving up. Today is a new day. I'm not working today so I'll go to a meeting and get some phone numbers. I always want to know how people stopped using-like what was the trick. I'm feeling pretty depressed and anxious. I'm just going to keep posting on this board.

BSPGirl

Marte

liiise

figure out where you went wrong, learn from this and going to a meeting right away is the best thing you can do

collingwood

Thanks for your replies. I went to a meeting today and got some phone numbers of people I can call. I liked the meeting and I plan on going back tomorrow.

Luckyv2

I pmed you hope that you keep going to meetings you will find a lot of support there that is for sure. Try 90 meetings in 90 days. Go until you want to go. I heard this at a meeting the other day,

I would rather spend 20 years of my life going to meetings to find out if I am an addict rather than spending 20 years of my life not knowing made since to me

Love Vic

Anna

Hi Collingwood,

The fact that you are trying again is great. You cannot let this disease beat you. You have a choice and you can do this.

nogard

I stopped using and drinking by starting going to meetings, talking and listening to people and thats still how I do it.

Keep on.

Kevin