Originally Posted by Patcha

Day 9. The time is flying by. I feel comfortable and settled. I am so sick of myself when I am drinking, it's a relief to be sober. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD from events that happened more than 20 years ago. When I think about the symptoms, I realise I was self medicating with alcohol. It's a bit of a revelation. My life is great. Couldn't be better. I just have intrusive memories, anger issues and I'm always on high alert. Drinking switches all of that off. All of that stuff has been hitting me like a ton of bricks while not drinking, but I can see it for what it is. I am starting up my regular therapy again, too. I can see the pattern of getting some sober time, then going through a period of PTSD triggers and drinking again. It's not the case every single time I picked up after some sober time, but it's part of the cycle. I'm absolutely exhausted from the emotional and mental rollercoaster, but I feel ok in myself. I have resources and support.

Day 9 in the bag. Night night all.