24 Hour Recovery Connections Part 410
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Join Date: Apr 2017
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24 more hours for me please. 24 more hours of feeling vulnerable and unsupported. 24 more hours of learning to accept that that is ok.
I appear to be strong now. So strong. I can't expect people to know what's going on inside my head. They don't know about the demons that keep appearing there. But it's taking me back to when I was a kid... when I had to pretend to be strong. When the demons were real. When I got so angry at an uncaring world that doesn't give a ****. The world hasn't changed but I have. I realise now that the anger is more dangerous than those demons. The anger is what I can so easily turn against myself. It's the anger that will hurt me. So I'm learning to sit with the anger and the demons and the memories that make me want to scream. And I'm learning to accept that it's ok. That those demons have always been there and until I face them, they're never going to go away. And all this is going on whilst I buy groceries and wash laundry and read with my kids and help them with homework and go to work every day. And nobody knows.
I appear to be strong now. So strong. I can't expect people to know what's going on inside my head. They don't know about the demons that keep appearing there. But it's taking me back to when I was a kid... when I had to pretend to be strong. When the demons were real. When I got so angry at an uncaring world that doesn't give a ****. The world hasn't changed but I have. I realise now that the anger is more dangerous than those demons. The anger is what I can so easily turn against myself. It's the anger that will hurt me. So I'm learning to sit with the anger and the demons and the memories that make me want to scream. And I'm learning to accept that it's ok. That those demons have always been there and until I face them, they're never going to go away. And all this is going on whilst I buy groceries and wash laundry and read with my kids and help them with homework and go to work every day. And nobody knows.
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: yorkshire UK
Posts: 879
Morning all. Its 9am here in the UK. Please count me in for another 24 hours sober and clean. Congratulations those celebrating a milestone, my thoughts and prayers go out those suffering and struggling.
Dad had an ok night and is sleeping now which is what he needs Member
Join Date: Oct 2014
Location: London, England
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Morning all - in for 24 more.
Good day ahead. Going to see a play, which my friend got £3 tickets for (who cares if it's any good ;-), then spending the night in the woods for some much-needed back-to-nature therapy: fire, trees, owls, teepee
Neo, Whopper - love to your dads, hope they are up and about soon
Kenton - so sorry to hear what a tough time you are having. I hope sharing it on here has helped even a little bit. There is a book that helped me a few years ago, to process my own anger, called Facing the Fire, by John Lee. It may not be your cup of tea, but I found it useful.
Anyway, have compassion for yourself, and know that people here care and know what you're dealing with
Good day ahead. Going to see a play, which my friend got £3 tickets for (who cares if it's any good ;-), then spending the night in the woods for some much-needed back-to-nature therapy: fire, trees, owls, teepee
Neo, Whopper - love to your dads, hope they are up and about soon
Kenton - so sorry to hear what a tough time you are having. I hope sharing it on here has helped even a little bit. There is a book that helped me a few years ago, to process my own anger, called Facing the Fire, by John Lee. It may not be your cup of tea, but I found it useful.
Anyway, have compassion for yourself, and know that people here care and know what you're dealing with
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
Posts: 88,516
Originally Posted by Rainman1 
Rainmans in for 24, Makes me sad not to see Weeve's name on the list. Happy thoughts and a prayer for my friend, and a prayer for all that are still suffering/struggling
And good morning. And love to everyone and 24 more please. ♥♥
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
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Originally Posted by kenton
24 more hours for me please. 24 more hours of feeling vulnerable and unsupported. 24 more hours of learning to accept that that is ok.
I appear to be strong now. So strong. I can't expect people to know what's going on inside my head. They don't know about the demons that keep appearing there. But it's taking me back to when I was a kid... when I had to pretend to be strong. When the demons were real. When I got so angry at an uncaring world that doesn't give a ****. The world hasn't changed but I have. I realise now that the anger is more dangerous than those demons. The anger is what I can so easily turn against myself. It's the anger that will hurt me. So I'm learning to sit with the anger and the demons and the memories that make me want to scream. And I'm learning to accept that it's ok. That those demons have always been there and until I face them, they're never going to go away. And all this is going on whilst I buy groceries and wash laundry and read with my kids and help them with homework and go to work every day. And nobody knows.
I appear to be strong now. So strong. I can't expect people to know what's going on inside my head. They don't know about the demons that keep appearing there. But it's taking me back to when I was a kid... when I had to pretend to be strong. When the demons were real. When I got so angry at an uncaring world that doesn't give a ****. The world hasn't changed but I have. I realise now that the anger is more dangerous than those demons. The anger is what I can so easily turn against myself. It's the anger that will hurt me. So I'm learning to sit with the anger and the demons and the memories that make me want to scream. And I'm learning to accept that it's ok. That those demons have always been there and until I face them, they're never going to go away. And all this is going on whilst I buy groceries and wash laundry and read with my kids and help them with homework and go to work every day. And nobody knows.
But we do.....I listen to you and love you and feel how strong you are and how much you have overcome. I hear your power....I know that power.....you are driven partly by the ghosts of the past....ghosts that remain and make you never want your family to go through what you did.....and you are amazing. Your family has a wonderful life. Gosh, kenton dog has it so good that all of his doggy neighbours are jealous....bet they hardly speak to him.
Yes, I agree honey.....we need to let the demons go.
Mine were huge and now they have no more power.
Sending you oodles of love beautiful one.
♥♥♥
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Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: Burien WA.
Posts: 2,893
Off for dog walk after some coffee, 6 days a week for the last 5 weeks at work, pretty damned tired but my extra effort is really needed at work, hopefully this will get me a decent raise after we get caught up. well have to admit I'm lucky I kept my job after last bender. Hope everyone having a hard time has their day go a little easier today. 24 hours sober please and thank you everyone for your support when I was down.
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