24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 315
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Look who has squirrellies again..... 
I couldn't stand it..they are cold...hungry.....I had a ton of bird food left so I put it in the feeder and hung it in a good spot. They jump on it, knock out a ton of seeds and eat them from the ground. And I have 3 of them playing in my garden now....happy-making.
I couldn't stand it..they are cold...hungry.....I had a ton of bird food left so I put it in the feeder and hung it in a good spot. They jump on it, knock out a ton of seeds and eat them from the ground. And I have 3 of them playing in my garden now....happy-making.
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Checking in for 24. Had a drinking dream last night. I think these dreams have replaced my usual ones I experienced when stressed. Ugh, I hate these dreams. Even after 4+ years sober I still have them ! At least, it was only a dream. Thankful for that !
Congrats to the milestoners and prayers to those who are suffering
Another 24 hours of gratitude, patience and sobriety pls! its 6:28am here !
Congrats to the milestoners and prayers to those who are suffering
Another 24 hours of gratitude, patience and sobriety pls! its 6:28am here !
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Originally Posted by venuscat 
I dunno....I can't imagine you even having the time to stop and think about how strong you are....love....of course it's not your fault. It was never your fault, and the fact that your son is doing as well as he is is because you are so dedicated....bet you there is an underlying physical issue, and they will find it.
A good therapist who works with a GP may well get to the bottom of this for you.
And I know you and your husband have a strong love....this is tough stuff...this is draining and would put a major strain on any marriage.
And we made sure you were on the list ....I knew your heart was here, even if you didn't quite manage to post.
You are never alone my friend....really. We have your back, always.
♥
A good therapist who works with a GP may well get to the bottom of this for you.
And I know you and your husband have a strong love....this is tough stuff...this is draining and would put a major strain on any marriage.
And we made sure you were on the list ....I knew your heart was here, even if you didn't quite manage to post.
You are never alone my friend....really. We have your back, always.
♥
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Originally Posted by Kaneda8888
Checking in for 24. Had a drinking dream last night. I think these dreams have replaced my usual ones I experienced when stressed. Ugh, I hate these dreams. Even after 4+ years sober I still have them ! At least, it was only a dream. Thankful for that !
Congrats to the milestoners and prayers to those who are suffering
Another 24 hours of gratitude, patience and sobriety pls! its 6:28am here !
Congrats to the milestoners and prayers to those who are suffering
Another 24 hours of gratitude, patience and sobriety pls! its 6:28am here !
My dreams are so vivid, it really feels like I am drinking, and in minutes (in my dream) I become that selfish greedy dishonest get-out-of-my-way person that inhabited my body for so many years...
...and then I wake up and think thank God, thank you God.....just thank you.
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Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife
Thank you so much for these words...I do feel like you guys always have my back and that means more than you will ever know!
I have no other family anymore even though in reality there are sisters and nephews and cousins galore....Nick and all of you are my family now.
And we all love you very much.
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Oxford...Memory..hmmm. I am 21 months booze free. The other day I went to get a physio assessment. I went back once- be-c I forgot the protective neoprene sleeve I wear on my right arm. I always wear it- always. BUT forgot it. The had to go back a second time be-c I forgot my hat. Brain training helps a bit (for me- writing lists and chess). So do not worry about it too much.
Kaneda- yep, booze dreams. I have them too. Sometimes very real, with significant people from my past. I ground myself. I remind myself just a dream/nighmare/flashback, then touch a solid 'thing' like a wall, table, close my eyes and do 3 slow and clear breaths. You are right- words, images and memories do not hurt. Only what we do with them.
Suze- you are doing so well. I am glad your lives have found peace. Just a little bit of Aussie weirdly news- on tele news this morning (0658 Friday) a guy in Sydney was charged with assault- for throwing a boomerang at someone.
Probably had a digeridoo as a concealed weapon.
Kaneda- yep, booze dreams. I have them too. Sometimes very real, with significant people from my past. I ground myself. I remind myself just a dream/nighmare/flashback, then touch a solid 'thing' like a wall, table, close my eyes and do 3 slow and clear breaths. You are right- words, images and memories do not hurt. Only what we do with them.
Suze- you are doing so well. I am glad your lives have found peace. Just a little bit of Aussie weirdly news- on tele news this morning (0658 Friday) a guy in Sydney was charged with assault- for throwing a boomerang at someone.
Probably had a digeridoo as a concealed weapon.
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Now I want to know who he threw the boomerang at.
You know those things can actually kill....probably not in the hands of a novice, but still, funny (unless someone was hurt).
And thank you love....I am so very grateful, every single day, no, still on every single hour at this point.
You know those things can actually kill....probably not in the hands of a novice, but still, funny (unless someone was hurt).
And thank you love....I am so very grateful, every single day, no, still on every single hour at this point.
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There’s been a few posts about dreams lately. I’ve had quite a few vivid dreams as of late. Not about drinking but, about lost opportunities. Personal and professional opportunities. Basically all lost because of alcohol and, in my younger years drugs. These dreams haunt me and are one of the reasons for my relapses as of late, (as well as my idiot brother). I get to the point where I say “eff it” and start drinking just to forget about it.
I know I will never forget about these things but, I need to find a way to put them in perspective and, move forward with my life. I think the first step is acceptance. Acceptance that what happened is the past and, can’t be changed. Acceptance that alcohol won’t change anything or correct it.
I guess for now it’s just one day at a time.
I know I will never forget about these things but, I need to find a way to put them in perspective and, move forward with my life. I think the first step is acceptance. Acceptance that what happened is the past and, can’t be changed. Acceptance that alcohol won’t change anything or correct it.
I guess for now it’s just one day at a time.
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You know jsm.....that was my deal for a long long time. I messed everything up so badly for the same reasons you did, and my family...God, well, God help me....it has been so hard for so so long....
I thought the same as you do, that acceptance would help me to not drink.
What I finally found out was that not drinking helped me to gain acceptance.
All of the angst and the pain and the horrible regrets.....none of those dissipated until I got more sober time. I honestly thought I would always have to live with my failures, my poor image of myself.....but guess what? None of it, not one bit matters anymore.
Everything I ever did in my life got me to this point, this place.
Had I done it differently, successfully?
Well, I wouldn't have met Nick.
And you know I wouldn't change that for a second....
I truly believe that the entire answer to all of this is not drinking one day at a time. We get to build muscles that we didn't even know existed, we gain strength and perspective that we did not know was possible.
Keep going....push past this awful part.....it is really really worth it my friend. ♥
I thought the same as you do, that acceptance would help me to not drink.
What I finally found out was that not drinking helped me to gain acceptance.
All of the angst and the pain and the horrible regrets.....none of those dissipated until I got more sober time. I honestly thought I would always have to live with my failures, my poor image of myself.....but guess what? None of it, not one bit matters anymore.
Everything I ever did in my life got me to this point, this place.
Had I done it differently, successfully?
Well, I wouldn't have met Nick.
And you know I wouldn't change that for a second....
I truly believe that the entire answer to all of this is not drinking one day at a time. We get to build muscles that we didn't even know existed, we gain strength and perspective that we did not know was possible.
Keep going....push past this awful part.....it is really really worth it my friend.
♥
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Originally Posted by Neoo
70s and 80s Leigh My friend and I where in the gym the other day and a lady in her 80s was on the exercise bike and talking to my friend at the same time. I had to laugh he was busted with the weights and turns to me and say I wish super gran would be quiet
My friend and I where in the gym the other day and a lady in her 80s was on the exercise bike and talking to my friend at the same time. I had to laugh he was busted with the weights and turns to me and say I wish super gran would be quiet 
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