Originally Posted by Kaneda8888

I found that what is most important is to have faith in yourself. That takes time. Its like rebuilding a lego sculpture. Piece by piece, slowly and gradually you will get there. My view is that having an external faith or HP is designed to remove the obsession around alcohol and problems which overwhelm you. Its good to have but you cant force it ! I discovered an external faith about 3-4 months after getting sober. I didnt expect it. Be patient and let sobriety unfold a path for you. In the meanwhile, reach out for help such as SR. Always here to help.

Originally Posted by bandicoot2

(((Neoo)))
(((Jo)))
(((Kris)))

My husband was diagnosed with an untreatable disease and we've spent the better part of this summer worrying about the future. This disease will eventually kill him and from all accounts, the time before his death will be fairly awful. I've been wondering if I'm up to the task of caring for him while still maintaining my sobriety and working on my recovery. In my mind, the two are different. I can stay sober by not drinking but must continue to work on why I drank as part of my long term recovery.

Yesterday I prayed and prayed and prayed and then I gave it up to God. Today I woke with a sense of peace and calm. I can take off my cape. I don't have to save the world. Living one day at a time will get us through. From this thread I've learned that 24 hours at a time will do. Planning for the future is necessary....worrying about it is not.

So, 24 more grateful hours for me please! Hugs, peace, strength and love to all.....xxxx

Originally Posted by jsm273

Pebbles and Neoo just remember that if you give and go back to using it will eventually kill you! I know this sounds pretty hollow coming from me considering that I'm only on day three or four but, I know from experience that it will kill you. I've seen a few people who died from either drinking or drugging. It wasn't a pretty sight. It wasn't a graceful death.

Post, shout, scream. Do whatever it takes. Just don't pick up. The two of you have come s long ways do, don't give it up. Please!

Originally Posted by auxilio

Checking in for day 2. I fell off last Tuesday and binged for 4 days. It comes like lightening. I can't have one drink. I never have been able to have one drink; ever since my first drink as a teenager, I could not stop drinking until I passed out. I believe this is the definition of an alcoholic.

Originally Posted by Pebbles666

I feel I shouldn't be here. Everyone has faith. Or believes in a higher power. I don't even believe in me.
Some days I want to send prayers to you all. But that would make me a hypocrite. Why is today such a struggle for us all ?? Xxxx I'll just send some love. Xxx P.