24 Hour Recovery Connection Part 281
My AV... My monster... The thing that wants to destroy everything I care about raised its head and spoke today. No, I did not drink. I thought if I was not drinking it could not make me do it's bidding, but I was wrong.
I did something extremely hurtful and I did not understand why until I realised it was my monster working through me. What I did did not reflect any sort of normal behavior on my part, and did not even jive with how I was feeling at the time. Oh my darling Suze... I am so sorry.
My monster hates that I am working a program of recovery. It writhes and kicks inside my head. This is how I know I am doing the right thing
This tells me I cannot rest on my laurels in recovery. I want my monster gone. I do not ever want to be that person again.
I did something extremely hurtful and I did not understand why until I realised it was my monster working through me. What I did did not reflect any sort of normal behavior on my part, and did not even jive with how I was feeling at the time. Oh my darling Suze... I am so sorry.
My monster hates that I am working a program of recovery. It writhes and kicks inside my head. This is how I know I am doing the right thing
This tells me I cannot rest on my laurels in recovery. I want my monster gone. I do not ever want to be that person again.
It will be so nice to have it behind you. I think the fear of the unknown is sometimes the most difficult for anxiety/worry. I know it is for me.
A warm summer night here...the sunset a hot pink. My feathered friends are saying goodnight now.
My friend the moon will be here soon ~ he will keep me company as I work here at my desk. He is the strong silent type. Hee hee...it works for him.
I'd like 24 more hours please. There are loved ones who are relying on me tonight.
Sweet dreams all ~
Lillian
My friend the moon will be here soon ~ he will keep me company as I work here at my desk. He is the strong silent type. Hee hee...it works for him.
I'd like 24 more hours please. There are loved ones who are relying on me tonight.
Sweet dreams all ~
Lillian
♥ This is a list of everyone who posted their commitment to stay sober in the last 24 hours:
10 EDT ~ 9.59 pm EDT.
It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us! ♥
1newcreation
abcowboy
aussieblue
auxilio
axeman5971
Babs1234
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
Bobbieka
BringingBackB
Canadian Koala
ChloeRose63
CMish
Coldfusion
CrippledButFree
DaneK
Dee74
Dekizadee
Delilah1
Endoftheday
erfra7
FprmerBeerLover
gatorman
Gilmer
Giraffegirl2013
Goat
goose333
Hevyn
joandmelandhan
jsm273
Kaneda8888
kenton
KiKi0615
Kris47
least
LillianGish
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
lyddie
Madbird
Neoo
Nic233
nmd
Optimist4ever57
Pebbles666
PhoenixJ
Pinky1
PippoRossi
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
RedBerryJuniper
Saskia
Scylla
Seska
site1Q84
SoberLeigh
Sunflowerlife
Surrender2win
teaorcoffee
tgirl
theVman31
Time2Rise
TinkerB
tomls
tootsl1
vanaprastha
venuscat
Weev1l
wiscsober
WME3
Wrandi1
yukonm
zeppodog
Onward together! ♥
10 EDT ~ 9.59 pm EDT.
It is awesome to have every single one of you here with us! ♥
1newcreation
abcowboy
aussieblue
auxilio
axeman5971
Babs1234
bandicoot2
BarbieKen
Bobbieka
BringingBackB
Canadian Koala
ChloeRose63
CMish
Coldfusion
CrippledButFree
DaneK
Dee74
Dekizadee
Delilah1
Endoftheday
erfra7
FprmerBeerLover
gatorman
Gilmer
Giraffegirl2013
Goat
goose333
Hevyn
joandmelandhan
jsm273
Kaneda8888
kenton
KiKi0615
Kris47
least
LillianGish
lilymaz
Lostmyoffswitch
lyddie
Madbird
Neoo
Nic233
nmd
Optimist4ever57
Pebbles666
PhoenixJ
Pinky1
PippoRossi
Purplrks3647
Quincy
quitter62
RedBerryJuniper
Saskia
Scylla
Seska
site1Q84
SoberLeigh
Sunflowerlife
Surrender2win
teaorcoffee
tgirl
theVman31
Time2Rise
TinkerB
tomls
tootsl1
vanaprastha
venuscat
Weev1l
wiscsober
WME3
Wrandi1
yukonm
zeppodog
Onward together! ♥
August 14, 2017
beerbgone ~ 2 weeks! ♥
Arbor ~ 1 year & 11 months! ♥
Dharma33 ~ 2 years & 3 months! ♥
Kris47 ~ 3 years & 7 months! ♥
Soberwolf ~ 4 years & 1 month! ♥
tootsl1 ~ 4 years & 5 months! ♥
Hevyn ~ 9 years & 7 months! ♥
beerbgone ~ 2 weeks! ♥
Arbor ~ 1 year & 11 months! ♥
Dharma33 ~ 2 years & 3 months! ♥
Kris47 ~ 3 years & 7 months! ♥
Soberwolf ~ 4 years & 1 month! ♥
tootsl1 ~ 4 years & 5 months! ♥
Hevyn ~ 9 years & 7 months! ♥
Checking-in for my commitment to stay sober for the next 24 hours. Day 9 was better than 8.
BENEFITS:
*I'm feeling more calm than I have in a long time but my skin is very itchy and I'm getting red spots sometimes.
* My bank account is not at zero and I'm paying back credit debt (most of which is for booze).
DRAWBACK:
I fantasize about my next drink! Need to be careful.
24 HOURS AT A TIME!
BENEFITS:
*I'm feeling more calm than I have in a long time but my skin is very itchy and I'm getting red spots sometimes.
* My bank account is not at zero and I'm paying back credit debt (most of which is for booze).
DRAWBACK:
I fantasize about my next drink! Need to be careful.
24 HOURS AT A TIME!
Busted on Friday, had 3 cans, then threw a Pity Party as I "poor me'd" my way through Saturday, and here I am Sunday, determined to see the slip for what it is (the result of giving in to alcoholic 'poor me' thinking).
It's time to get on with Sunday Day 2 with a new attitude from now, even if it IS already afternoon - I don't have to wait until tomorrow to start. And I'll start by taking my dog for a walk.
I Definitely Commit to another 24 hours Sober.
It's time to get on with Sunday Day 2 with a new attitude from now, even if it IS already afternoon - I don't have to wait until tomorrow to start. And I'll start by taking my dog for a walk.
I Definitely Commit to another 24 hours Sober.
Welcome to Day 2.
Be sure to lean on us ANY Time.
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