Class of April 2015 Part4
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Hi All, Day 23 here. At work and feeling unmotivated...been feeling that way off and on over the last few weeks. When all the emotional tumultuousness of being drunk/hungover/upset goes away sometimes what was being covered up by all that isn't so grand.
I'm going to keep focusing on gratitude - I have a great job and coworkers and I am very thankful for that. Just had to vent my frustrations! I hope you all have a great day.
I'm going to keep focusing on gratitude - I have a great job and coworkers and I am very thankful for that. Just had to vent my frustrations! I hope you all have a great day.
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Day 20. I was beginning to think I couldn't do 20 days for some reason. I'm happy that I have accomplished this feat thus far. The goal right now is to slowly get away from all the junk food I eat and transition into a better diet. I'm not surprised I didn't notice this health issue earlier but I do have a mild form of Plantar Fasciitis that needs to heal. Not much of an issue, I just need to invest in some Crocs or something that has good arch support before I can start hiking the trails again. The Plantar Faciitis wasn't from alcoholism btw, it was because I thought it would be a great idea to go from no exercise to walking 5 miles a day on worn running shoes. Needless to say, my footies are now trying to heal. Have a great day everyone!
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Originally Posted by SwimKim12 
Hi All, Day 23 here. At work and feeling unmotivated...been feeling that way off and on over the last few weeks. When all the emotional tumultuousness of being drunk/hungover/upset goes away sometimes what was being covered up by all that isn't so grand.
I'm going to keep focusing on gratitude - I have a great job and coworkers and I am very thankful for that. Just had to vent my frustrations! I hope you all have a great day.
I'm going to keep focusing on gratitude - I have a great job and coworkers and I am very thankful for that. Just had to vent my frustrations! I hope you all have a great day.
SwimKim, I was feeling like that today as well. I was sitting outside having coffee and I realized that I was not obsessing anymore about drinking. The fog is officially gone. Clear head. I am completely focused. Which means I am now not looking at my life and problems through rose colored glasses, which to me was the bottom of an empty bottle of red wine! It's time to deal with some issues. We can do this!
Gratitude it the heart's memory, don't forget that!
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Hi everyone! It's day 16 plus it's my birthday. It's my last year as a 30 something! Feeling great and going out tonight with my 6 year old for dinner. 
I'm thinking about splurging and getting a chocolate milkshake. I am so happy to spend my birthday sober. Have an awesome day!
I'm thinking about splurging and getting a chocolate milkshake. I am so happy to spend my birthday sober. Have an awesome day!
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Originally Posted by Angie247
Hi everyone! It's day 16 plus it's my birthday. It's my last year as a 30 something! Feeling great and going out tonight with my 6 year old for dinner. I'm thinking about splurging and getting a chocolate milkshake. I am so happy to spend my birthday sober. Have an awesome day!
I'm thinking about splurging and getting a chocolate milkshake. I am so happy to spend my birthday sober. Have an awesome day!
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Happy Birthday Angie!!!
I agree with both of you Swim/Kim.
Although I was a daily drinker for years, I was pretty much drunk all day every day for a full year! Maybe some days I drank just a little to "maintain".
Man...what a pile of poo my alter ego left for me! Unreal. Tough times with issues bigger than I thought I could handle. Drinking the pain away did not make issues go away for sure. They only grew larger and some grew so large they spawned new problems.
The cool part is...now my mind is clear. Still stressed...sure. But now I can ADDRESS them. It's going to take a looong time for me to unravel this mess. But I have confidence I CAN. That's something I was missing before.
Look out, I'm in control.
I agree with both of you Swim/Kim.
Although I was a daily drinker for years, I was pretty much drunk all day every day for a full year! Maybe some days I drank just a little to "maintain".
Man...what a pile of poo my alter ego left for me! Unreal. Tough times with issues bigger than I thought I could handle. Drinking the pain away did not make issues go away for sure. They only grew larger and some grew so large they spawned new problems.
The cool part is...now my mind is clear. Still stressed...sure. But now I can ADDRESS them. It's going to take a looong time for me to unravel this mess. But I have confidence I CAN. That's something I was missing before.
Look out, I'm in control.
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Edgy, very Edgy. I just wrote a long thing and posted it but the details are inconsequential. I am very edgy, and anxious and acting in a way I normally do not. My meds make me testy, and without booze, more testy.
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Johnny- I tend to be an anxious person myself. I've found that going for a walk, jog, even pacing helps. If you have access to a gym lifting weights is phenomenal. Heck jumping up and down or walking up a flight of stairs can help too. Alcohol seems to fix it initially but makes it 10x's worse once the booze begins to wear off.
Hope you get some relief.
Hope you get some relief.
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Dang. I was in the process of reading it, had to take call. When I came back it was gone. I was right at the best part when you said you went to customer service. It helps to unload all that stuff. The stories are always entertaining. Keep em coming.
You may be right with the meds. It could also just be where you are in healing too. I'm sure you've read all the posts of the moodiness that comes early on.
When I'm moody, I crawl into a cave and shut everyone out. I'm passive-aggressive too so anyone who tries to "poke the bear" may not even be aware that I'm testy....unless they poke me too many times, then comes the F bombs.
I'm finding my emotions to be like a moving upward averaging curve. There's still down cycles, but my lowest points are no where near what my lowest points were.
Glad to see you're up and running around today. And you did it without running people off the road in anger...so it's a win/win!!
You may be right with the meds. It could also just be where you are in healing too. I'm sure you've read all the posts of the moodiness that comes early on.
When I'm moody, I crawl into a cave and shut everyone out. I'm passive-aggressive too so anyone who tries to "poke the bear" may not even be aware that I'm testy....unless they poke me too many times, then comes the F bombs.
I'm finding my emotions to be like a moving upward averaging curve. There's still down cycles, but my lowest points are no where near what my lowest points were.
Glad to see you're up and running around today. And you did it without running people off the road in anger...so it's a win/win!!
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Happy birthday Angie! Have a great one!
Johnny, my emotions have been a bit up and down, especially in the first couple of weeks of sobriety. I would get snappy in situation where I'd normally be able to handle things in a calm way. That seems to be a bit better now. Maybe it will also pass for you. Hope so! All the best!
Johnny, my emotions have been a bit up and down, especially in the first couple of weeks of sobriety. I would get snappy in situation where I'd normally be able to handle things in a calm way. That seems to be a bit better now. Maybe it will also pass for you. Hope so! All the best!
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HI all,
Swim Kim, I also really understand using alcohol to cover up the things that really don't feel right/aren't working in my life. Ended up with major burnout. Was actually at couples counselling today and lots and lots of tears. Feeling drained and exhausted. But at least it's sober tears, not the outpouring of stuff I could barely remember the next day...
Swim Kim, I also really understand using alcohol to cover up the things that really don't feel right/aren't working in my life. Ended up with major burnout. Was actually at couples counselling today and lots and lots of tears. Feeling drained and exhausted. But at least it's sober tears, not the outpouring of stuff I could barely remember the next day...
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haha! maybe I'll rewrite the two stories I had today. Normally I'll cut and paste it if it's a good rant, but I did not 
. It's good to hear that they are entertaining. I have to get writing again. Rigor Mortis has set in.
Lily I know exercise right? That med gets my heart rate up, not cool. I've also been trying in vain to get working shoe inserts. The latest customs are coming within a week. I have a New Balance gift card for nice kicks to put them in. The problem is with my arch, it completely collapses under weight. That cause interior tibular tendonitis, anterior tibular and achilles issues. I've always had pronation, but a year ago my feet just gave out. So this has been a real pain in butt. Which also led to drinking because the pain would stop after 2 glasses. But oddly not drinking at all has made it much better. Must be hydration. I have not taken any Ibuprofen for it since 5 days in to this.
. It's good to hear that they are entertaining. I have to get writing again. Rigor Mortis has set in. Lily I know exercise right? That med gets my heart rate up, not cool. I've also been trying in vain to get working shoe inserts. The latest customs are coming within a week. I have a New Balance gift card for nice kicks to put them in. The problem is with my arch, it completely collapses under weight. That cause interior tibular tendonitis, anterior tibular and achilles issues. I've always had pronation, but a year ago my feet just gave out. So this has been a real pain in butt. Which also led to drinking because the pain would stop after 2 glasses. But oddly not drinking at all has made it much better. Must be hydration. I have not taken any Ibuprofen for it since 5 days in to this.
Angie!
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Originally Posted by johnny555
haha! maybe I'll rewrite the two stories I had today. Normally I'll cut and paste it if it's a good rant, but I did not . It's good to hear that they are entertaining. I have to get writing again. Rigor Mortis has set in.
Lily I know exercise right? That med gets my heart rate up, not cool. I've also been trying in vain to get working shoe inserts. The latest customs are coming within a week. I have a New Balance gift card for nice kicks to put them in. The problem is with my arch, it completely collapses under weight. That cause interior tibular tendonitis, anterior tibular and achilles issues. I've always had pronation, but a year ago my feet just gave out. So this has been a real pain in butt. Which also led to drinking because the pain would stop after 2 glasses. But oddly not drinking at all has made it much better. Must be hydration. I have not taken any Ibuprofen for it since 5 days in to this.
. It's good to hear that they are entertaining. I have to get writing again. Rigor Mortis has set in. Lily I know exercise right? That med gets my heart rate up, not cool. I've also been trying in vain to get working shoe inserts. The latest customs are coming within a week. I have a New Balance gift card for nice kicks to put them in. The problem is with my arch, it completely collapses under weight. That cause interior tibular tendonitis, anterior tibular and achilles issues. I've always had pronation, but a year ago my feet just gave out. So this has been a real pain in butt. Which also led to drinking because the pain would stop after 2 glasses. But oddly not drinking at all has made it much better. Must be hydration. I have not taken any Ibuprofen for it since 5 days in to this.
You're absolutely right about hydration - I read water described as a smart bomb for the body and it's right - my fitness level (measured by my heart rate doing the same runs) soared when I stopped drinking, even though it's only 36 days ago 😄 I am convinced that hydration is a big part of that because I also recover much more quickly between runs. (I mentioned in a previous post that running was my way of telling myself that the amount I was drinking didn't matter because I was running. See how clever I am..)
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Hi all,
Just checking in. Bit up and down today. Got agitated when I shouldn't have and thought a bottle of wine would be good. I didn't have any though - just kept on reminding myself why I stopped drinking... All this is despite a great start to the day! So, just got to be on our guard I guess.
That's it for me today. Ended with a clear mind. Tomorrow's another new day and I have decided not to drink.
Best wishes to all who read and post here
OMD
Just checking in. Bit up and down today. Got agitated when I shouldn't have and thought a bottle of wine would be good. I didn't have any though - just kept on reminding myself why I stopped drinking... All this is despite a great start to the day! So, just got to be on our guard I guess.
That's it for me today. Ended with a clear mind. Tomorrow's another new day and I have decided not to drink.
Best wishes to all who read and post here
OMD
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