grtgrandpa

You need to call the ER and get medical help. All of your score cards are reading zero right now and you need the help that will stop you from feeling what you are feeling.

We will always be here 24/7 and glad you are here.

venuscat

Can you do what grtgrandpa suggests?
I think it is a good idea.
Can you perhaps call in sick to work?

V xx

Duffster

Hi Pach! SO glad you found us. Congrats on Day 2. It's going to be rough for a while but it sounds like you have a great resolve. Check around the boards - maybe check in with the December Class in the Newcomers section. You will find you are not alone.

Duffster

Double Post

grtgrandpa

Pach, you never have to feel the way you are feeling right now if you get the help that we all got. We are listening. Are you there?

Pach

I am going to a clinic tomorrow. Thank you for keeping me on my toes grtgrandpa <3

I do deserve to have to go through this, but I don't deserve to die!

I can hear conversations that are not happening at all. And right on cue, start of day 2. Funny that.

Thank you EVERYONE for listening and really hearing me.

Oh, and you know what, the hallucinations are projecting my personal fears upon my sensory faculty. I told it it wasn't true and to get out. Now I am mostly needled (one in my eye felt wonderful). Keeps forcing my eyelids open. I'm not quitting now ... no, no, no.

trachemys

Hi Pach. Call 911 if everything goes sideways! We've all been here. And we're all here for you.

venuscat

You can do this Pach.
Please get some medical help if you can love.
And keep listening to grtgrandpa ~ he knows the drill.

V xx

Pach

..........Thank you..........

Exactly does zero mean? Calm before the storm? In what way?

grtgrandpa

Pach, I am off to exercise right now, but I will check on you when I get back. If you can't sleep go to the newcomers november/december threads.

venuscat

Pach...I am not going anywhere.
Right here with you love. ♥

grtgrandpa

zero means bottom and there is no way left but up and that's where all of us are going and we want you with us.

Pach

Dear Everybody,

I kept wanting to add, ummm, I never realised alcohol stayed in my system so long. Been 28 or more hours and I still smell wine on my breath and in my nose. Yuck.

Thank you to all who care so much. It's really mind-blowing.

And I am doing this in bed from my phone so it's cutting off some messages Sorry! I can see some and not respond.

gleefan

Pach - congratulations on deciding to stop drinking. You don't have to do this alone. It sounds like you need medical attention and we're here for emotional support.

venuscat

Yes, alcohol stays in your system for a bit.
But you are doing great.
It will get better love.

Rusty Zipper

welcome to the DQ Gang pach

you can do this

and listen to the great advice given

i did the self-detox, and it wasn't pretty

all good wishes to you

venuscat

I really hope you are sleeping now Pach.
And I hope you can take a day off work.
At the other end of the globe, so I will be asleep soon myself.
Sending you love and prayers that today gets better for you.

Venus xx

Pach

Hey kitty, I am trying. I'll keep it posted!

Nini, Le Chat Noir ...

venuscat

Pach

Update: Called in to work. Could not sleep more than an hour. In bed I thought my body was a red chile without the top, and I was doing a wavy motion. So I got up and was posting here. Then, I thought, I'll get some more water. I couldn't stand, legs a meter apart and could not orientate myself in the room, nearly falling over. This lasted an hour. It is much better now but I am going to the ER. Thank you for the information. I even packed a bag. I am officially scared. That is a brain thing, because it was my legs, not torso and arms. I really have messed my future health here. So, calling a cab.