Originally Posted by biminiblue

ahhhhhhh 10 hours of sleep. I did that last night. When I woke yesterday I was emotionally raw and spiritually hung-over. Trying to do the inside job of healing my resentments and fears and anger and whatever-the-eff else I have to heal really got to me. Yesterday I went through the motions. I went to my morning meeting. I prayed. Then I was done. Tired. They say not to let myself get Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired (HALT). I think I spent most of yesterday feeling everything but hungry. That doesn't serve me well. Like I said, I was in jammies at 4:15, in bed by 8PM, (up for an hour at midnight) and I slept until 7AM. I'm still waking up in the middle of the night wide awake. Like Jade, I find that I may as well get up and not lie there in the dark worrying. Also like Shoshie, for me a glass of milk and some toast or a cup of hot chocolate and toast seems to settle me down to fall back asleep. So I'm awake for an hour or so, watch a little TV in bed, have my snack and fall back asleep. I think this is a physical manifestation of the healing process, so I'm trying to not fight it. It just is what it is. Since many of us are having the same issue, it must be a physiological reaction. That makes me feel better, and I think it will pass. This morning I went to a 10AM meeting. There were about 30 people there and I was the only woman. Yikes. It was fine though. I heard a lot of stories from men who had screwed up while drinking and their sincere remorse at the way they had thought about or treated women in their lives. I need to hear that stuff. Some of the women here may understand when I say I haven't had the best relationships with men in my life. In listening to these men, I'm beginning to heal those hurts and resentments. It was really good.

Originally Posted by biminiblue

ahhhhhhh 10 hours of sleep. I did that last night. When I woke yesterday I was emotionally raw and spiritually hung-over. Trying to do the inside job of healing my resentments and fears and anger and whatever-the-eff else I have to heal really got to me.

Yesterday I went through the motions. I went to my morning meeting. I prayed. Then I was done. Tired. They say not to let myself get Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or Tired (HALT). I think I spent most of yesterday feeling everything but hungry. That doesn't serve me well. Like I said, I was in jammies at 4:15, in bed by 8PM, (up for an hour at midnight) and I slept until 7AM.

I'm still waking up in the middle of the night wide awake. Like Jade, I find that I may as well get up and not lie there in the dark worrying. Also like Shoshie, for me a glass of milk and some toast or a cup of hot chocolate and toast seems to settle me down to fall back asleep. So I'm awake for an hour or so, watch a little TV in bed, have my snack and fall back asleep. I think this is a physical manifestation of the healing process, so I'm trying to not fight it. It just is what it is. Since many of us are having the same issue, it must be a physiological reaction. That makes me feel better, and I think it will pass.

This morning I went to a 10AM meeting. There were about 30 people there and I was the only woman. Yikes. It was fine though. I heard a lot of stories from men who had screwed up while drinking and their sincere remorse at the way they had thought about or treated women in their lives. I need to hear that stuff. Some of the women here may understand when I say I haven't had the best relationships with men in my life. In listening to these men, I'm beginning to heal those hurts and resentments. It was really good.

Originally Posted by Ilya

Ok, I'm feeling really aggravated. Lately my boss has not been very clear on details and instructions, and she used to always give me all of the information I needed to carry out a task... She was very clear on what she wanted. Now I have spent all afternoon, last night, and this afternoon carrying out a project exactly to her request, and I'm being told just now that it's all wrong and I need to start over. Starting to steam....

Originally Posted by Shoshie8

Hi Ilya, That is VERY frustrasting. Have you been offered an explanation?

Originally Posted by Ilya

Thanks. I was actually going to type my stream of consciousness earlier which included me considering that my employer might be having a hard time, etc, but I didn't because it's been going on for a while. About the past year. She gives incomplete details, doesn't like to be corrected or for me to inquire further, and laughs it off when she "realizes" she's told me a dramatic opposite of what she wants. It's just a bit frustrating, and for someone who's been mostly a pushover her whole life, I get really angry at these points. It's just happened enough so I know it's not about something else in her life. That's all. I'm just bothered. But going out to just carry out the task all over again.

Originally Posted by calichris

Just got done with a great cardio workout and a nice healthy lunch my body is thanking me all over I have lost some weight and feel better after just 5 days than I have in a long time!! So grateful for this group !!

Originally Posted by Aarryckha

I've reached 2 weeks sober and I'm noticing changes in my body. Except for last night, I fall asleep pretty quickly and sleep soundly. I haven't had shakes for over a week. I still get dizzy and have the disembodied feeling every day but the episodes are shorter. The brain fog doesn't last all day anymore. I've been in a pretty up mood with more energy. I have Burning Mouth Syndrome. It sucks. It's annoying. I'm hoping that my vitamins will make that go away. I'm never hungry. Like ever. I have to force myself to eat. That concerns me because I used to be a binge eater and I don't want to keep trading one addiction for another.

Originally Posted by Shoshie8

Congratulaaations! Look what a difference two weeks makes. I love your positive energy and determination, Aarry. I'm sure I'm not alone in saying that.

But Burning Mouth Syndrome!? Ouch. I guess the clue is in the name -- are you okay? And as the food thing goes, it's important to keep hunger at bay and blood sugar stable otherwise alcohol cravings and poor recovery. Just stick with healthy - hard to binge on fruit and veggies

Keep on keeping on, doing GREAT!