Class of January 2013 Part 2
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Originally Posted by NewLife2013 
Congrats! The recycling bin was my walk of shame. I hated putting that thing out at the curb with so many liquor bottles in it.
Mine goes out tonight too, and it is also free of the devil's bottle collection.
Mine goes out tonight too, and it is also free of the devil's bottle collection.
Little things like that ... make you realize what a grip alcohol can have on a person.
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Join Date: Feb 2012
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Evening all! Welcome to the new guys. This place is awesome, you should stick around :-)
Day 7 done with few problems apart from my ongoing family stuff. Might be having a family session tomorrow with my mum and the psychologist (don't know yet if the psych will go for it or say she thinks it's a bad idea). Means that tonight has been spent with my mum making lists of all the problems she wants to discuss. Which is fair enough apart from the fact that the accusations and blame are flying around like bullets and I feel like I'm having to defend myself constantly. If this is the dress rehearsal for tomorrow I'll do well to get through without drinking which is ridiculous as that's what we're meant to be addressing. But if I tell my folks now that I think it will be counter-productive they'll say I don't want to get help/ better. Am mentally exhausted and this is the first night in 7 I've gone to bed thinking that tomorrow can only be worse not better.
Day 7 done with few problems apart from my ongoing family stuff. Might be having a family session tomorrow with my mum and the psychologist (don't know yet if the psych will go for it or say she thinks it's a bad idea). Means that tonight has been spent with my mum making lists of all the problems she wants to discuss. Which is fair enough apart from the fact that the accusations and blame are flying around like bullets and I feel like I'm having to defend myself constantly. If this is the dress rehearsal for tomorrow I'll do well to get through without drinking which is ridiculous as that's what we're meant to be addressing. But if I tell my folks now that I think it will be counter-productive they'll say I don't want to get help/ better. Am mentally exhausted and this is the first night in 7 I've gone to bed thinking that tomorrow can only be worse not better.
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Hi Greensleaves and Aems, this is a great group so welcome !
Whodey, yep its a total relief not to worry about getting rid of the empties anymore it was one of the things I used to get paranoid about, that somebody would look in my bin and see them all, like somebody would doh!!
Whodey, yep its a total relief not to worry about getting rid of the empties anymore it was one of the things I used to get paranoid about, that somebody would look in my bin and see them all, like somebody would doh!!
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Michigan
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Originally Posted by WhoDey
Walk of shame ... so true. Rearranging the contents so that the liquor bottles were on the bottom and the soda cans on top. Difficult to do some weeks.
Little things like that ... make you realize what a grip alcohol can have on a person.
Little things like that ... make you realize what a grip alcohol can have on a person.
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Washington State
Posts: 85
Given I was hiding mine, I couldn't even do the recycling bin walk of shame. I had to hide them in my car and drive to local areas where there was a public garbage can where I could throw stuff away. Sounds so sick when I say it out loud. Gratitude check for today: I am thankful today I do not have to worry about someone finding my empties and not having to drive around looking for a place to stash them. Thanks for sharing everyone! 
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Join Date: Jan 2013
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Originally Posted by halfvictory
getting towards the end of day 4. Wednesdays, as I've mentioned before, are my down nights and I used to relax with a bunch of beers. struggling right now thinking about tonight.
will need to be back on here later for help. thanks everyone so far. good luck tonight class.
will need to be back on here later for help. thanks everyone so far. good luck tonight class.
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WhoDey, seems you struck a chord with disposing the empties. I was just thinking tonight how great it will be tomorrow to take out the recycling completely devoid of liquor bottles. And yeah, I also sometimes carried the empties with me to dispose of elsewhere. And there was that one memorable occassion when it was SO windy that I drove back home after I was five minutes away to make sure the can was still standing so my empty wouldn't show. It is strangely comforting to know I was not alone in this neurosis.
Scott, I'm also from WI, though I don't live there anymore. It's good to have company, aina?
Welcome new peeps, it's good to have you join us.
Scott, I'm also from WI, though I don't live there anymore. It's good to have company, aina?
Welcome new peeps, it's good to have you join us.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
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Welcome, to aems, greensleeves, aphid, and anyone else I've missed, amd congrats to everyone -- we are all really making great progress! I'm not catching everything but trying to keep up with what I can, and I'm really proud of all of us! 
The best thing I've experienced in the last couple of days is such better sleep! Some weird dreams, but mostly just catching up on good rest. I really did not realize how much my sleep was disrupted and not restful.
To those posting about the AV voice diminishing, and how things seem better/easier than with all our (many, in my case) past attempts at quitting, I can honestly say that is the case with me as well today. Just feeling more at peace. More resolved.
Also, I'm continuing to try to focus on all the many reasons not to drink in an effort to cover up that AV voice. So I try to keep internal thoughts going like this, "Yes, I don't drink because I'm an alcoholic, and because I'm losing weight, and because my mood is lifting, and because I'm getting better sleep, and because my eyes are not bloodshot, and because I was not a grump with my kids today, and because...."
One week today. Have a great night everybody.
The best thing I've experienced in the last couple of days is such better sleep! Some weird dreams, but mostly just catching up on good rest. I really did not realize how much my sleep was disrupted and not restful.
To those posting about the AV voice diminishing, and how things seem better/easier than with all our (many, in my case) past attempts at quitting, I can honestly say that is the case with me as well today. Just feeling more at peace. More resolved.
Also, I'm continuing to try to focus on all the many reasons not to drink in an effort to cover up that AV voice. So I try to keep internal thoughts going like this, "Yes, I don't drink because I'm an alcoholic, and because I'm losing weight, and because my mood is lifting, and because I'm getting better sleep, and because my eyes are not bloodshot, and because I was not a grump with my kids today, and because...."
One week today. Have a great night everybody.
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Originally Posted by kam00096
Evening all! Welcome to the new guys. This place is awesome, you should stick around :-)
Day 7 done with few problems apart from my ongoing family stuff. Might be having a family session tomorrow with my mum and the psychologist (don't know yet if the psych will go for it or say she thinks it's a bad idea). Means that tonight has been spent with my mum making lists of all the problems she wants to discuss. Which is fair enough apart from the fact that the accusations and blame are flying around like bullets and I feel like I'm having to defend myself constantly. If this is the dress rehearsal for tomorrow I'll do well to get through without drinking which is ridiculous as that's what we're meant to be addressing. But if I tell my folks now that I think it will be counter-productive they'll say I don't want to get help/ better. Am mentally exhausted and this is the first night in 7 I've gone to bed thinking that tomorrow can only be worse not better.
Day 7 done with few problems apart from my ongoing family stuff. Might be having a family session tomorrow with my mum and the psychologist (don't know yet if the psych will go for it or say she thinks it's a bad idea). Means that tonight has been spent with my mum making lists of all the problems she wants to discuss. Which is fair enough apart from the fact that the accusations and blame are flying around like bullets and I feel like I'm having to defend myself constantly. If this is the dress rehearsal for tomorrow I'll do well to get through without drinking which is ridiculous as that's what we're meant to be addressing. But if I tell my folks now that I think it will be counter-productive they'll say I don't want to get help/ better. Am mentally exhausted and this is the first night in 7 I've gone to bed thinking that tomorrow can only be worse not better.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
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It's weird. The last two evenings I've felt huge cravings. I'm on day 9, and days 1 thru 6 were fairly easy, but 7 and 8 were touch and go. Then this afternoon I noticed a certain calm. The beast wasn't acting up. Maybe I've gotten used to being back at work? Maybe certain triggers weren't around today? It makes me wonder what my triggers are, exactly. I know the first day was work related. I had an annoying meeting and just wanted to drink my feelings away. Then yesterday I think it was a girl. We have a flirtatious relationship, and even tho I'm very happy in my relationship with my GF, I felt this urge to just go out and get drunk with this girl. I think for me, girls can be just as intoxicating as booze. So I think somehow this was a trigger for me.
Anyway, I survived. And today was calm. Happy for that. Looking forward to a good sleep and an awesome morning run.
Stay strong peeps!
Anyway, I survived. And today was calm. Happy for that. Looking forward to a good sleep and an awesome morning run.
Stay strong peeps!
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Happy Birthday Aphid! 
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I wanted to be the first to wish you a fabulous day today, even from half way across the world.
You can do this. Your life is exactly what you make it be.
Wishing you the best from the States.
7I wanted to be the first to wish you a fabulous day today, even from half way across the world.
You can do this. Your life is exactly what you make it be.
Wishing you the best from the States.
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Originally Posted by terrazinaa
Hello Aphid!
...I guess it really depends on the whole story, and how many times he trusted you and you betrayed his trust. May be just give him some quiet space for now... and work on yourself, and improving your life. Instead of bringing more negative emotions, anger and tears into the relationships, just do things that make you feel positive. Good mood is contagious.
At least that's what I am trying to do, doesn't always work, but I see the improvement.
...I guess it really depends on the whole story, and how many times he trusted you and you betrayed his trust. May be just give him some quiet space for now... and work on yourself, and improving your life. Instead of bringing more negative emotions, anger and tears into the relationships, just do things that make you feel positive. Good mood is contagious.
At least that's what I am trying to do, doesn't always work, but I see the improvement.
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Originally Posted by Greensleeves
Hello all, this is my first post. This is the first time I've ever joined a forum, so I hope this works. In more ways than one. I've been reading your January posts, and I would like to join your lovely group. I'm on day eight, and so far so good. I've had the night sweats and the cravings...and am drinking herbal tea by the gallons. I've kept up with my exercise (easier to go to the gym without the hangover). Sleep was rocky at first, but lately it's been nothing short of delicious.
Thanks to all of you for your honesty and dedication. I'm shy and may not say much, but I'm cheering for you all in my heart and in my prayers.
Thanks to all of you for your honesty and dedication. I'm shy and may not say much, but I'm cheering for you all in my heart and in my prayers.
Welcome Greensleeves!
I love your green bird avatar!
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Originally Posted by Obladi
WhoDey, seems you struck a chord with disposing the empties. I was just thinking tonight how great it will be tomorrow to take out the recycling completely devoid of liquor bottles. And yeah, I also sometimes carried the empties with me to dispose of elsewhere. And there was that one memorable occassion when it was SO windy that I drove back home after I was five minutes away to make sure the can was still standing so my empty wouldn't show. It is strangely comforting to know I was not alone in this neurosis.
Scott, I'm also from WI, though I don't live there anymore. It's good to have company, aina?
Welcome new peeps, it's good to have you join us.
Scott, I'm also from WI, though I don't live there anymore. It's good to have company, aina?
Welcome new peeps, it's good to have you join us.
Still living here in wi obladi, it will be different watching the Packer game this weekend sober! I plan on making that my day 6 achievement, but still finishing off day 3 tonight first
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I almost caved tonight. I almost walked a few blocks down the street to the corner liquor store.
Instead - i made a peanut butter sandwich and washed that down with a glass of blueberry kefir.
What a difference just getting food in your system makes. All is well now, crisis diverted.
Instead - i made a peanut butter sandwich and washed that down with a glass of blueberry kefir.
What a difference just getting food in your system makes. All is well now, crisis diverted.
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