Buny

well guys I medded up again. I did not do what YOu advised me to do. Instead my I followed my boyfriends lead and went and bought for him and he shared with me then of course I had to have more so I went and bought for me. I felt terrible and yesterday I went to 2 meetings yesterday and got phone #s and I am going to at least 1 today. Thursday they are having a meeting marathon and food and fellowship and I plan on spending at least a few hours there.
Thanks to all of you for your prayers and support
bunny

Moontime

Buny, The blessing is making it back here. Not many people have that oppurtunity when the use again. I have to say when I kept doing what I was doing, I kept getting the same results. Your doing the right thing by sticking close to the fellowship on Thursday. Keep Coming Back!!

Hadenuff

yeah buny,
your still breathing, start over again. and meetings will help, thats what I did, 2 or 3 meetings a day, marathon round the clock meetings on holidays. this disease of addiction is no joke but your alive and as long as your alive you have another chance at recovery.
H

Ann25

Just thank God that you made it back. Give thanks that you have the ability to see what it right. For a lonnnng time I didnt. Pick yourself up-and move ahead. You have TODAY-- thats all any of us have. Hang in there!!!!

jenniferaz1980

((((((BUNY)))))))

You made it back! That is quite a miricle in itself. Dont forget that yesterday is over and it is a new day. Start this day out on the right foot. Say and little prayer and stay clean just for today because it is all you have.

Buny

one of the real eye openers was when while smoking (crack) yesterday I was coughing up blood. So now it is not only hurting my family but it is also hurting me physically. I need to be in the rooms listening and I need to be here getting all the help that I can or I may not be here one day soon.

jenniferaz1980

Buny,

Keep your mood positive. You can do this. For me the hardest thing to do would be to walk back in the rooms after a relaps. It shows alot of humility. I certainly have alot of respect and love for you.

HERAIRNESS

Today, is day one Buny of the rest of your life. We are all pulling for you! Stay strong!

nutz

Our resistance to change seem built in, and only a nuclear
blast of some kind will bring about any alteration or
initiate course of action. A relapse, if we survive it,
may provide the charge for the demolition process.
A replapse can do the job of a awakening us to the
necessity for virgorous personal action.

A relapse maybe the jarring experience that brings about
a more rigorious application of the program.

These times are often the periods of our greatest growth.
Our minds and bodies seem tired of it all, yet the dynamic
force of change or true conversion, deep within, may be working
to give us the answers that alter our inner motivations
and change our lives.

Buny

You are right I see clearly that I need to make a change and stop the suffering on all parts both my children and myself. Seeing the blood that I coughed up yesterday really awakened me that I REALLY do need to get this done FOR ME. I believe that I can do this especially with your support
Bunny

KelKel

Bunny
Welcome back

Are you still coughing up blood?
If so you might think about getting into a Dr.

nutz

courage is not without fear.

I can't but we can.

JUST FOR TODAY
I will be unafraid. My thoughts will be on my new associations,
People who are not using and who have found a new way of life.
So long as I follow that way, I have nothing to fear.