waterface

I feel so desperately low, all in my life is going bad, i feel like i don't want to do anything! The person i love isn't there, i constantly get drunk, not because i want to, but because my body wants & needs it!

I'm so, so sad & upset! My parents tell me to cut myself & i say i'll kill myself, they think i wont! when i am panickinhg & feel low, i try to talk to them about my relationship & codependency problems!
I'm into my second bottle vodka & feel, i don't care what i does to me, i'm just so upset!

BlueMoon

ALL you have to do *right now*/*tonite* is to keep yourself safe.
If you ARE suidical, you need to head to the ER and ask them to help you. (I know from personal experience that alcohol and depression is an awful combo to feel!)

Another thought is to call Alcoholics Anonymous and tell them what you just told me.

Either place WILL have people who care - yes, even on New Year's Eve!

YOU ARE worth it - your LIFE IS worth it.

Please - make one of those calls and help keep yourself safe!


Blessings,
Blue

mateo

Hi Gazmix,

I been where you are before--deep into a bottle of vodka, staring at a bottle of pills for the longest time (in my case), just not caring....

Its not a good place to be.

Please, pick up the phone and call AA or someone to help you get to the ER like was suggested above. You ARE worth it! I'm grateful that i did.

Take care, mateo

velvet

Call AA and find a meeting. If feel that you can't do that, then go to the emergency room and they will get you some mental health treatment TONIGHT. But you will need to be honest, just like you were in your thread. Go now.

1Marty

I have been where you have been. Hang in there, as mentioned, contact AA. When I am feeling really down, which seems to be pretty often, getting out to a meeting never fails to bring me up a little. Your life is important, Im sure. We are all important. Even if we don't recognize it ourself.

Bozo

Your soul is crying out to be FREE! It is one of the strongest of human emotions. We want to be FREE from our self made PRISONS.

When you are ready, you will ask for help.

If I could only help you see the other side and the relief of being FREE..........

waterface

I thank you all
my body feels sick & tyred of feeling sick & tyred! I'm scared of my future, reliance on others. I'm a mess at the moment! I do see a psychiatrist & want to go to aa I'm shaking a lot & feel so sick of life
thankyou

Bozo

A higher power will help you, but you will need to surrender and ask for help.

It is scary and frightening but it is WORTH GOING THROUGH.

My higher power works through other people.

Gaz, get yourself cleaned up and go to a meeting.

You have a lot to lose.

shutterbug

all good advice from everyone here.

I don't understand why your parents would tell you to cut???

If your body is needing the alcohol then it's a sure sign that things are getting bad. You might think about checking into a detox center that doubles as a mental health center. It will help you get through the next few days without a drink and without the pressures of the world on your shoulders. The first time I checked myself into the hospital it was the BEST thing in the world for me. It was better than a tropical vacation....honestly!!

Please take care of yourself my friend....stay safe....you are worth so much!