eoghanacht

When your so-called partner does'nt do what she needs to do for herself(to get better mentally and physically) and when you feel yourself getting nuttier and nuttier or your dep/ptsd/whatever is getting worse, and when you don't have anyone to talk to and when your 'partner' gets lazier and lazier and does'nt help at all even when she is 'able' to............. it is a
......................................very
very

dark

place.









me. right now.

Astro

I'm sorry eog, I can't imagine how that must feel, but I do understand your frustration.

I'm not a relationship expert. I'm getting married for the third time, but at least this time I'm doing it clean and sober, with programs of recovery and faith in a Higher Power. I feel good about that.

Some of what I've learned in the past 5 years.....I try my hardest to stay focused on keeping the relationship together and healthy. That might mean counseling, couples therapy, whatever it takes. But then I also know that sometimes I might need to briefly detach from my partner so we can both work out our differences.

Weekly CoDA meetings in addition to my AA program helps alot, and so does church and staying active within my community.

nandm

Loneliness is a huge part of mental illness. I know that there are many instances when I have felt alone even within a relationship. I struggle with feeling alone even in a crowd of people.

I am thankful for SR and these boards as I can see that I am not alone in my struggles. It doesn't necessarily change how I feel but it is nice to know I am not alone.

Here are some of the things I do when I am feeling alone.

• I focus on what I can change in me, even if it is one small thing that day
• I read positive books, meditations, etc....
• I call someone and talk to them.
• I focus on myself not what others are doing
• I read these boards
• I write/journal
• I can't think of anymore right now but I am sure there are many other things I do that help alleviate some of the loneliness.

Hang in there as you are not alone even though it feels like it.

eoghanacht

thanks astro and nandm for your replies, but sorry to say that I am alone, it's just the way my illness is going at the moment and I have felt this way for some time about ....her.
but thanks anyway, thanks.. thanks....










me <-- crap

Astro

Be gentle on yourself if possible eog, try to remember that God doesn't make crap or junk. And if you're feeling like crap, make a list of all the things you're doing right, like posting on a recovery forum for support.

eoghanacht

sorry astro but um not sure but i might become a wiccan or druid or similar. checking things out. sorry.
but thanks anyway.














me

Faerie

Sweetie,

I'm glad you felt better after we talked on msm today.

So my witchy ways are rubbing off on you are they?

Well you know I'll teach you all I know, my faith in the Mother Goddess brings me much joy and peace.

As with your issues with your partner, you know I think you deserve better than the way you are currently treated.

Please take care of yourself.

Much love,

Kel x

ClayTheScribe

Eog, nothing says you have to continue putting up with this. But I know it must be hard to leave a relationship like that. I hope you can find the strength soon to do what's right for yourself.

eoghanacht

the voice in my head sometimes says that i do have to put up with this though.

i may leave this forum for a while.
have to make a decision but will think it thru first.











me.

ClayTheScribe

That's just the depression talking, you know that.

If you must, but you'd be sorely missed.

Try to do something good for yourself today.











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