please help me
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please help me
I haven't cut, or self harmed in any way for nearly 8 months now, although I think about it almost daily and today, now...I have an overwhelming urge to cut but I can't find any of my old blades I don't know what to do
the fuzziness has started in my head again and i'm so scared...
my best friends, the people I always depend upon (my parents) are away on holiday this week and I miss them so so much, I need them here with me but I can't call them to tell them how I feel because it would ruin their holiday and they deserve so much to have fun and relax after all i've put them through...
I feel like such a failure after all the progress I thought I was making I just feel like giving up again I feel so weak...I just wish my mum and dad were with me...
the fuzziness has started in my head again and i'm so scared...
my best friends, the people I always depend upon (my parents) are away on holiday this week and I miss them so so much, I need them here with me but I can't call them to tell them how I feel because it would ruin their holiday and they deserve so much to have fun and relax after all i've put them through...
I feel like such a failure after all the progress I thought I was making I just feel like giving up again I feel so weak...I just wish my mum and dad were with me...
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Please don't give up RG, there are no failures in recovery as long as we keep reaching out for help and support.
There's information here on self-injury http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...lf-injury.html
and please, please if you feel like giving up http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-suicidal.html
There's information here on self-injury http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...lf-injury.html
and please, please if you feel like giving up http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-suicidal.html
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Thanks Astro...but I don't know how many times I can think i'm getting better just to be thrown off the ladder again...I know it's gonna happen every time I start feeling positive I know in the end it'll end in misery and thats no way to live...I feel so, so guilty...my parents deserve a better daughter not a sh*t one like me.
I'm pathetic, i'm so tired all the time and can't be bothered to do anything, even take care of my self, wash and eat properly...they just seem like mundane things...
i'm sorry...
I'm pathetic, i'm so tired all the time and can't be bothered to do anything, even take care of my self, wash and eat properly...they just seem like mundane things...
i'm sorry...
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RockyGirl, you can and will get through this, just keep posting. You are not pathetic, you are just an addict and when uncomfortable you do the same as I do, you reach for something that will ease the pain. But you can get through it without cutting or hurting yourself. Please feel free to PM me. I believe you are a good person and you will get through this.
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RockyGirl, you can and will get through this, just keep posting. You are not pathetic, you are just an addict and when uncomfortable you do the same as I do, you reach for something that will ease the pain. But you can get through it without cutting or hurting yourself. Please feel free to PM me. I believe you are a good person and you will get through this.
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You are the only one who can change your life, to create a positive attitude. Sobriety gives that to us, I was never positive, never thought I was good or even good enough, I was so negative and down on myself. Today I choose to be happy, I find something I am grateful for each day, even if it is that I am breathing.
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You are the only one who can change your life, to create a positive attitude. Sobriety gives that to us, I was never positive, never thought I was good or even good enough, I was so negative and down on myself. Today I choose to be happy, I find something I am grateful for each day, even if it is that I am breathing.
I try and have been trying so hard and I thought I was getting somewhere...I think i'd be okay if my mum and dad were here...I think i'm just going to take my Olanzapine and Diazepam and try to get some sleep...maybe things will be better in the morning...
thank you all for your kindness :praying
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RockyGirl, hey. I just came across your post, sorry that I haven't posted, I was'nt on the forums earlier, have been looking at interesting stuff on the net. sorry.
Ok first, I go with what others have said. You're not a s**t, even if you think or feel like that.
I think (not 100% certain)-that there are helplines you can call, day or night.. I know about the Samaritans, but also, in my town (in england)-there is a local line that is available for those that are having emotional/mental distress. I'm just thinking as well as hoping that there is the same for Brighton..?
Take care please
me
Ok first, I go with what others have said. You're not a s**t, even if you think or feel like that.
I think (not 100% certain)-that there are helplines you can call, day or night.. I know about the Samaritans, but also, in my town (in england)-there is a local line that is available for those that are having emotional/mental distress. I'm just thinking as well as hoping that there is the same for Brighton..?
Take care please
me
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RockyGirl, hey. I just came across your post, sorry that I haven't posted, I was'nt on the forums earlier, have been looking at interesting stuff on the net. sorry.
Ok first, I go with what others have said. You're not a s**t, even if you think or feel like that.
I think (not 100% certain)-that there are helplines you can call, day or night.. I know about the Samaritans, but also, in my town (in england)-there is a local line that is available for those that are having emotional/mental distress. I'm just thinking as well as hoping that there is the same for Brighton..?
Take care please
me
Ok first, I go with what others have said. You're not a s**t, even if you think or feel like that.
I think (not 100% certain)-that there are helplines you can call, day or night.. I know about the Samaritans, but also, in my town (in england)-there is a local line that is available for those that are having emotional/mental distress. I'm just thinking as well as hoping that there is the same for Brighton..?
Take care please
me
Thank you again for your help and concern!
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Good morning Aimee, it made me smile to hear that you're having friends over today, and I'm sure you're a treasured friend for them to have. You're taking small recovery steps and making progress, that's what it's all about.
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Thank you both so much, you have no idea how much your support and kindness helps me...it helps me to beleive in people again and see that there is a future and I have to keep on going...
thank you so much again both of you! There are only a few people like you in the world, and I am lucky to have spoken to you!
Thanks!!
Aimee
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