Trying to hold it together...
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Trying to hold it together...
I woke up this morning and forced myself to get some things done, now I am ready to scream and pull my hair out! I feel like I will never ever beat this depresion and anxiety. I hid for so long behind drugs that I just have to learn to cope again I guess, I am not craving any drugs, just feel like crawling in a hole somewhere! I am really trying to not give it much legitimacy by focusing on how I feel, but when I let myself feel all the feelings so I can let them go.. I feel really really out of control.. I know ya all have worked through this stuff and I cling to the hope that others have learned to cope with depression and so can i. I just still doubt myself.
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Well, I worked through what I was feling and accomplished some goals today!! Nothing really big to a normal person, but big to me nevertheless! Maybe I'll get the hang of all this recovery stuff yet!!
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Tammie,
Good going!
Great work!
I was thinking about you and maybe the charm of Italy has somehow managed to glide into your mind.
At least I hope so. These episodes are always so difficult to cope with. But they do pass. And it´s unfortunately true that depression happens sometimes in sobriety. All the more reason to stick together, share advice and get it together.
Love and light,
Good going!
Great work!I was thinking about you and maybe the charm of Italy has somehow managed to glide into your mind.
At least I hope so. These episodes are always so difficult to cope with. But they do pass. And it´s unfortunately true that depression happens sometimes in sobriety. All the more reason to stick together, share advice and get it together.
Love and light,
Use adversity
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My mom is Italian and was born in NYC, she was adopted so I don't know my real grandparents on her side, but I sometimes imagine maybe they live/lived in Italy. I am going to visit there one day. I was watching the Today show from there a few years ago and in Florence there is a bridge that depicts the Capricorn sign, I'm a Capricorn and I really want to get a painting and a picture of it! Hope your day is going great!!!
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2Stop,
It really is fantastic that you were able to get past some of those feelings and get some things accomplished. It is a big deal. I know it's a big deal for me when I'm going through it, because sometimes I just give in and don't accomplish anything. At least when I force myself to do things, while I still may feel bad, I know I went on anyway, and it makes me feel better.
You already have the hang of this "recovery stuff." I can tell by the things you say, and what you do.
Juls
It really is fantastic that you were able to get past some of those feelings and get some things accomplished. It is a big deal. I know it's a big deal for me when I'm going through it, because sometimes I just give in and don't accomplish anything. At least when I force myself to do things, while I still may feel bad, I know I went on anyway, and it makes me feel better.
You already have the hang of this "recovery stuff." I can tell by the things you say, and what you do.
Juls
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I want to thank you Juls and Lilya for always encouraging me, I appreciate you guys more than I can tell you in words alone.
Hope ya all are having a splendid day!!
Hope ya all are having a splendid day!!
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