Major depression/Bipolar Journal III
A picture's worth a 1000 words
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Join Date: Aug 2004
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so sad, so stressed...so needing someone, everyone, anyone.
seems everyday boss piles more on my he expects of me. Today before he went to lunch i asked what the big story for the day was...he said one of the two that's been in the works by the reporters for a while now, but which i've been given little about what kind of image to secure for. Both big packages, both all day work projects for me either way, but when he said either will go i wanted to shoot him.
somehow he just expected me to do all the art for both big packages in about 4 hours time and with nothing to go on as to what the stories/packages were really all about. He took about 10 minutes to give me the gist of one and then i told him if things changed i'd need him to do that kind of summery/info all over again for the other package. He left for lunch or something.
That new copy editor came in and suddenly she's telling me it's between not 2, but 3 story packages. I grumbled about boss not telling us which and then she informed it was her perogative. Whatever she said is what was what...in her matter-of-fact, know-it-all, i'm-the big-boss, warped way of hers.
I said, "so tell me which one YOU want to run". She continues her nonsense and then tells me.
Mannn...everything is like pulling freaking teeth and boss doesn't realize i've got 3 special pub deadlines breathing down my neck right now too.
And that's just work stuff.
Life stuff is a whole different story.
This weekend, one that many will spend resting, partying and/or vacationing....i will be stressing out every day of it.
Friday i will be shooting the last-minute wedding gig i wasn't planning to work
Saturday i will be shooting a last-minute portriat session i wasn't preparing to shoot
(both paying gigs tho so i can't afford to say no right now)
Sunday step-brother vacationing so the family truck is available for me to move the rest of my stuff that has all been waiting on the use of that truck
Monday is a big country singer performing locally that i have access to shoot from right in front of the stage so i don't want to not go to it.
Then Tuesday....back to work and the ass of a copy editor again for another 4-straight days of hell.
tears, tears i tell you.
seems everyday boss piles more on my he expects of me. Today before he went to lunch i asked what the big story for the day was...he said one of the two that's been in the works by the reporters for a while now, but which i've been given little about what kind of image to secure for. Both big packages, both all day work projects for me either way, but when he said either will go i wanted to shoot him.
somehow he just expected me to do all the art for both big packages in about 4 hours time and with nothing to go on as to what the stories/packages were really all about. He took about 10 minutes to give me the gist of one and then i told him if things changed i'd need him to do that kind of summery/info all over again for the other package. He left for lunch or something.
That new copy editor came in and suddenly she's telling me it's between not 2, but 3 story packages. I grumbled about boss not telling us which and then she informed it was her perogative. Whatever she said is what was what...in her matter-of-fact, know-it-all, i'm-the big-boss, warped way of hers.
I said, "so tell me which one YOU want to run". She continues her nonsense and then tells me.
Mannn...everything is like pulling freaking teeth and boss doesn't realize i've got 3 special pub deadlines breathing down my neck right now too.
And that's just work stuff.
Life stuff is a whole different story.
This weekend, one that many will spend resting, partying and/or vacationing....i will be stressing out every day of it.
Friday i will be shooting the last-minute wedding gig i wasn't planning to work
Saturday i will be shooting a last-minute portriat session i wasn't preparing to shoot
(both paying gigs tho so i can't afford to say no right now)
Sunday step-brother vacationing so the family truck is available for me to move the rest of my stuff that has all been waiting on the use of that truck
Monday is a big country singer performing locally that i have access to shoot from right in front of the stage so i don't want to not go to it.
Then Tuesday....back to work and the ass of a copy editor again for another 4-straight days of hell.
tears, tears i tell you.
A picture's worth a 1000 words
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Join Date: Aug 2004
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sometimes it awes me that when i need a pick-me-up the most...it is there...just wating. Last night i discovered another of my images had been printed in a large, national publication and as most people do on myspace...i sent a little note out (as mine is primarily a business page...so it's great advertising to do such). Anyway...2-3 people in the office are listed as friends and one saw it and sent a paper-wide email to everyone telling them!! i hate that i need such praise, but i do....and is probably why i'm in this career actually. It's the only kind of attention i crave and truely suffer in times of none over a long period. Gosh, i just hate that about myself.
Regardless....it was so nice to come to work today and have an e-mail box full of congrats from people all over the paper....after dealing with all those emtions and hurts when i left last night. (and the girl who sent out the email to everyone would have had NO way of knowing anything about last night...so it made it really nice to have happen today).
well, a million things pounding down on me to do in preparation for work and the after-work wedding gig and then weekend in hometown straight from the wedding. goodness....isn't it suppose to be a HOLIDAY weekend!
Regardless....it was so nice to come to work today and have an e-mail box full of congrats from people all over the paper....after dealing with all those emtions and hurts when i left last night. (and the girl who sent out the email to everyone would have had NO way of knowing anything about last night...so it made it really nice to have happen today).
well, a million things pounding down on me to do in preparation for work and the after-work wedding gig and then weekend in hometown straight from the wedding. goodness....isn't it suppose to be a HOLIDAY weekend!
A picture's worth a 1000 words
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Teach....still no success with that principal? Will they just tell you from day to day where you'll be or do they give you any kind of advance notice?
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Teach, you are so cool, you must travel on ice skates! 
Jenna, I miss being in touch and want to talk to you about some things.
But we will be out of town and out of computer for the weekend.
Will run straight for the computer when we get back!
Jenna, I miss being in touch and want to talk to you about some things.
But we will be out of town and out of computer for the weekend.
Will run straight for the computer when we get back!
A picture's worth a 1000 words
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Join Date: Aug 2004
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So yep...it was a true weekend of labor for me this holiday.
Friday = regular work, then wedding after
Saturday = portrait sitting with difficult teenager, and babysitting rowdy nephews
Sunday = cleaned sis's kitchen and helped cook for family dinner; shot concert and late night getting futon, truck and ready to move rest
Monday = moved trailer and truckbed full of last big items from old house.
napped after moving stuff today, now up and trying to talk myself into organizing even a few things, but that's not happening at the moment.
ugh....Is the weekend here yet???
Friday = regular work, then wedding after
Saturday = portrait sitting with difficult teenager, and babysitting rowdy nephews
Sunday = cleaned sis's kitchen and helped cook for family dinner; shot concert and late night getting futon, truck and ready to move rest
Monday = moved trailer and truckbed full of last big items from old house.
napped after moving stuff today, now up and trying to talk myself into organizing even a few things, but that's not happening at the moment.
ugh....Is the weekend here yet???
A picture's worth a 1000 words
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Join Date: Aug 2004
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Hi sis....how was your weekend trip?
I'm now working on my "year 4" thread intro....and should be posting it before hitting the hay in an hour or two
I'm now working on my "year 4" thread intro....and should be posting it before hitting the hay in an hour or two
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Join Date: Oct 2003
Location: Rhode Island
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Jenna,
I'm working on getting that fixed right now.
If you let me know of any specific problems, things that we can fix, I'd be happy to do whatever I can, to help ease this situation.
Shalom!
I'm working on getting that fixed right now.
If you let me know of any specific problems, things that we can fix, I'd be happy to do whatever I can, to help ease this situation.
Shalom!
To Life!
Join Date: Oct 2003
Location: Rhode Island
Posts: 9,293
Jenna,
Doug fixed it!!!
Again, please let me know if there's anything specific.
I can't promise anything, but, there may be things we can do...like this.
When are you going in for the ECT again?
Please let us know how you're doing...
Jenna, you know we care.
Shalom!
Doug fixed it!!!
Again, please let me know if there's anything specific.
I can't promise anything, but, there may be things we can do...like this.
When are you going in for the ECT again?
Please let us know how you're doing...
Jenna, you know we care.
Shalom!
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