Lionhearted1

Last night was my last drunk ever I feel relieved that it's all over I will miss certain things about my addiction because iam an addict and I don't think straight, but staying alive means more to me so it's goodbye to alcohol.

I'll rewind the story to last night. I started drinking after work was going to be just a bottle then a bottle and a few cans before I know it iam in a cab heading out to the local bars/clubs I start drinking meet a few people and iam having a great time putting as much alcohol down my throat as I can. Someone suggest going to the nightclub obviously I think this is a great idea more alcohol etc so we walk up to the door and I don't remember what was said but I ended up on the floor with 4 bouncers trying to restrain me now iam a big guy do lots of weights etc so they wrestle me to the floor one pulls my arm right back and puts it in a arm bar iam screaming in agony the other is putting his knee on the back of my chest and neck the other 2 are sitting on me.... Now iam in absolute agony my arm feels like it's going to break and iam gasping for air I start screaming that I can't breath and they don't care in that moment I felt so hopeless that my life could be taken and I have no control I decide there and then that iam done drinkng thank god the police arrived and sorted it out I was not charged as I had not done much wrong except be completely drunk.. This morning I can't move me left arm much the tendon ligaments and muscles are so sore my face is swollen from the impact of being wrestled to the floor but iam thankful to be alive.. I know if I was sober none of it would have happened and I last nights moment of clarity finally got through.

doggonecarl

I hope for your sake that this is the case, that the "light" has gone on for you.

Raider

Wow. Thank goodness you weren't hurt more seriously. Scary stuff.