13 Days
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13 Days
13 days ince I left, I went and moved all of our furniture out and put it in storage- So its final. I'm not going to lie and say it is easy- its not. We are still at the transition house and will be here till May 1- but I am grateful there are places like this where we can go to get help. I am proud of myself for leaving before I went and hit rock bottom along with him.
I dont do drugs- so I cant understand why I would let them impact my life and my childrens. I am fighting feelings of really being dissapointed with myself, but am glad that I am no longer constantly complaining- that I took control of my life instead of trying to control his.
Over the past few days I've really felt free- as if a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders...every once in a while I catch myself thinking about what he is doing etc. but I snap myself out quickly with a reminder that I can explain to my children why we are in the shelter I am protecting them....I could never explain why there was a drug addict in the house.
Please keep the prayers coming and I thank you all for listening- just knowing someone is really gives me strength.
I dont do drugs- so I cant understand why I would let them impact my life and my childrens. I am fighting feelings of really being dissapointed with myself, but am glad that I am no longer constantly complaining- that I took control of my life instead of trying to control his.
Over the past few days I've really felt free- as if a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders...every once in a while I catch myself thinking about what he is doing etc. but I snap myself out quickly with a reminder that I can explain to my children why we are in the shelter I am protecting them....I could never explain why there was a drug addict in the house.
Please keep the prayers coming and I thank you all for listening- just knowing someone is really gives me strength.
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Aw, sweetie, I am wishing you and your children brighter days ahead and a future filled with love and peace.
You are very brave, it's not easy to make such a big step, but you're a strong woman and you will be just fine. Protecting your children from the chaos of addiction is one of the most loving things you will ever do.
My prayers go out for you and your children, that one day soon you can settle and feel secure once again.
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You are very brave, it's not easy to make such a big step, but you're a strong woman and you will be just fine. Protecting your children from the chaos of addiction is one of the most loving things you will ever do.
My prayers go out for you and your children, that one day soon you can settle and feel secure once again.
Big Hugs
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I am fighting feelings of really being dissapointed with myself, but am glad that I am no longer constantly complaining- that I took control of my life instead of trying to control his.
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Originally Posted by findmyway 
...every once in a while I catch myself thinking about what he is doing etc. but I snap myself out quickly
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