Denoraphy

My week has been over stimulated with not too good feelings. I started medical billing school this week. I have that 3 nights a week for the next 16 months. I can’t shake the feeling that I am wasting my time with this endeavor, though. It seems that all of the ads I see for medical billers are requiring 2+ years of experience and the starting pay is just not enough for me to support me and my kids. I am really trying to keep a positive attitude. I realize that it will take me time to gain experience and a higher pay at any job I start.

Plus, I have noticed that my AH has been going through my personal possessions while I am at school. There is not a whole lot I can do about it, and it really makes me feel ‘stuck’. I hate that he is making me feel this way. It makes me feel like giving up on school so I can be here to protect what is mine. But I am going to forge forward and DEAL with it. If he needs to take my stuff, well…… I will not be happy about, but after his ass is out of here, and it WILL be, I will buy new stuff. If I give up on the school it is not going to be because of HIM.

teke

sorry this is happening for you but you seemed to be really focused on what you want your life to look like in the future. i glad to hear you are not giving up school because of his actions. stay strong, this too shall pass and you will come out on the other side. you and your are in my prayers.

justsomegirl

I hate that we feel stuck...I am so sorry you are feeling this way. You can replace stuff (most of it anyways) so please keep doing what is good for you.

barb dwyer

Denography

All my life I've let some man stop me from improving my lot in life.

DONT YOU DARE DO IT!!!

You need paper - go get your paper.
Get that skill.
You know know yet what the Infinite has in mind for you to encounter on the way.

I guarantee over HALF of the ransacking of your stuff is to make you stop.
Don't. Get a safety deposit box=- put your valueables in that - keep your journal on you alla time....

and get to class on time.

Denoraphy

Thanks for the replies. Him going through my stuff is not a new thing. I have secured mostly anything that he could use to financially drain me. Barb, I hadn't concidered that his ransacking could be a way of him getting me to STOP going to school, you are probably pretty accurate with that assumption. It doesn't seem like he is trying to hide the fact that he has been nosing around my stuff.

Freedom1990

Please don't let those ads discourage you, my dear! You've picked a wonderful field to go into.

I'm in my final year of college for a degree in medical coding/transcription, and I too was getting discouraged at the ads that I have seen.

I think you will be surprised at the resources you find as you get further along in school.

Twice over the years I tried to start into college, and twice I backed out due to crises with one daughter or the other.

I got college classes in here and there when I could.

This last time when I finally enrolled full-time, I was determined to finish. I've had so much happen during this period, but I have refused to give up what I am working so hard for!

Keep putting one foot in front of the other, and know that I am pulling for you! :ghug3