Full of Fear
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Full of Fear
I am so full of fear right now I needed to post. I am afraid I will crack. You know how it is when the addict seems to be struggling and you think maybe this time will be different.
We were supposed to meet today as I think I mentioned I have no officially left him verbally yet. He has been at work and supposed to meet with his sponsor and I have not heard from him. My mind is like he is not doing the right thing. My heart says I just want this to end. I guess god knows I am not ready and is protecting me from seeing him face to face as maybe I am not strong enough yet.
We were supposed to meet today as I think I mentioned I have no officially left him verbally yet. He has been at work and supposed to meet with his sponsor and I have not heard from him. My mind is like he is not doing the right thing. My heart says I just want this to end. I guess god knows I am not ready and is protecting me from seeing him face to face as maybe I am not strong enough yet.
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That is so true. It probably doesnt help that I was writing tenth step inventory today surrounding the whole situation and my resentments and just moved on to my fear list.
I also wrote a hard amends today to an ex-boyfriends mother. Just keep doing the next right thing and god will protect me. He just called me and sounds like he has a horrible cold. I am not sure if it is because of detoxing. Not my problem.
I also wrote a hard amends today to an ex-boyfriends mother. Just keep doing the next right thing and god will protect me. He just called me and sounds like he has a horrible cold. I am not sure if it is because of detoxing. Not my problem.
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