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Hi everyone,
The bad news is that my daughter, Leah's, HIV viral load was indeed accurate. In fact, it went up another 28,000 in the last 5 weeks, to make it 121,000. This is unusual. In fact, the reason the clinic repeated the labs a week ago was because they frankly didn't believe it was really 93,000 (as of january). They thought it was a lab error. So when we all realized this was for real and in fact it went even higher, they started her on 3 HIV anti-retroviral meds, today. she was totally freaked out and scared to death. she also had to wait to see the doctors and get these results for longer than expected (3 hours) and was starting to get dope-sick and losing patience with everyone and everything. for my part, it was not my finest hour. I "lost it" with her - sarcasm, raising my voice, arguing - several times at the clinic (in public), and several more times in private. I broke down in tears several times as well.
the good news is she is willing to go to detox and rehab. she knows and understands that the main reason her HIV is out of control is because of her crack. It seems that cocaine use in any form "feeds" the AIDS virus and makes it multiply at least 10 to 20 times faster than it ordinarily would. My daughter accomplished in about 6 months what normally takes about 6 to 8 years. She also knows that the HIV meds they started her on today will NOT WORK unless she stops using. So she is willing to try to get clean. she really doesn't want to get clean. But she also really doesn't want to die. Although her T-cells are still good, they will not be for long (weeks to couple of months).
I hope that deciding to go into treatment for this one reason alone is enough. I hope its enough to get her in the door and then for the rehab to do its 'majic' and find her a few more reasons to get and stay clean - she will surely need all the reasons and all the willingness she can get.
I did my homework last week (believing last months labs were not false readings), and I found a place called CR Recovery - private pay. My mother, Leah's Grandma, is willing to pay for it. Thank God.
If Leah doesn't change her mind, she will be in treatment by Wednesday, the latest. I'm waiting for my mom to send a cashier's check and then we can go.
Your prayers are needed and welcome.
The bad news is that my daughter, Leah's, HIV viral load was indeed accurate. In fact, it went up another 28,000 in the last 5 weeks, to make it 121,000. This is unusual. In fact, the reason the clinic repeated the labs a week ago was because they frankly didn't believe it was really 93,000 (as of january). They thought it was a lab error. So when we all realized this was for real and in fact it went even higher, they started her on 3 HIV anti-retroviral meds, today. she was totally freaked out and scared to death. she also had to wait to see the doctors and get these results for longer than expected (3 hours) and was starting to get dope-sick and losing patience with everyone and everything. for my part, it was not my finest hour. I "lost it" with her - sarcasm, raising my voice, arguing - several times at the clinic (in public), and several more times in private. I broke down in tears several times as well.
the good news is she is willing to go to detox and rehab. she knows and understands that the main reason her HIV is out of control is because of her crack. It seems that cocaine use in any form "feeds" the AIDS virus and makes it multiply at least 10 to 20 times faster than it ordinarily would. My daughter accomplished in about 6 months what normally takes about 6 to 8 years. She also knows that the HIV meds they started her on today will NOT WORK unless she stops using. So she is willing to try to get clean. she really doesn't want to get clean. But she also really doesn't want to die. Although her T-cells are still good, they will not be for long (weeks to couple of months).
I hope that deciding to go into treatment for this one reason alone is enough. I hope its enough to get her in the door and then for the rehab to do its 'majic' and find her a few more reasons to get and stay clean - she will surely need all the reasons and all the willingness she can get.
I did my homework last week (believing last months labs were not false readings), and I found a place called CR Recovery - private pay. My mother, Leah's Grandma, is willing to pay for it. Thank God.
If Leah doesn't change her mind, she will be in treatment by Wednesday, the latest. I'm waiting for my mom to send a cashier's check and then we can go.
Your prayers are needed and welcome.
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Her life really hangs in the balance. It seems she comprehends it now.
Keeping the faith that Wed. she is willing to be in the place that offers her the help she needs.
Her life really hangs in the balance. It seems she comprehends it now.
Keeping the faith that Wed. she is willing to be in the place that offers her the help she needs.
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Add my prayers and a bucket of hugs here, I can't imagine the thoughts that must be going through your head right now.
What helps me most at times like this is to say a prayer and give the entire package to God. He does better with these things than I do and never lets me down.
I'm lighting my candle of hope too, miracles happen everyday and I pray that Leah gets hers.
Hugs
What helps me most at times like this is to say a prayer and give the entire package to God. He does better with these things than I do and never lets me down.
I'm lighting my candle of hope too, miracles happen everyday and I pray that Leah gets hers.
Hugs
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