Just needing to share
Just needing to share
Hi!
Yesterday I went to my lawyer to get information...today my counselor. And somewhere in between all of this and the begging from my AH for one more chance...I came to realize that even though I may hold a love for him...I am not "in love" with him. But more importantly, I realized that I can't trust him enough to give him my love again. I can't trust him enough for me to feel that he won't break my heart AGAIN. Hummm...for me, this is big!
My counselor says I might still be in the honeymoon stage because he has only been gone for 37 days...BUT I absolutely love the peace and quiet albiet 2 kids. We have order, we have calm, we have SCHEDULES!!!! Everything is orderly, the kids' moods are more even and my franticness has all but a distant memory! (don't get me wrong...he makes his presence KNOWN DAILY with calls, and visits to "see" the kids! LOL, yeah, right!)
Today I feel good, and I will try to carry that with me tomorrow!
THANKS for letting me share!
Yesterday I went to my lawyer to get information...today my counselor. And somewhere in between all of this and the begging from my AH for one more chance...I came to realize that even though I may hold a love for him...I am not "in love" with him. But more importantly, I realized that I can't trust him enough to give him my love again. I can't trust him enough for me to feel that he won't break my heart AGAIN. Hummm...for me, this is big!
My counselor says I might still be in the honeymoon stage because he has only been gone for 37 days...BUT I absolutely love the peace and quiet albiet 2 kids. We have order, we have calm, we have SCHEDULES!!!! Everything is orderly, the kids' moods are more even and my franticness has all but a distant memory! (don't get me wrong...he makes his presence KNOWN DAILY with calls, and visits to "see" the kids! LOL, yeah, right!)
Today I feel good, and I will try to carry that with me tomorrow!
THANKS for letting me share!
I absolutely love the peace and quiet albiet 2 kids. We have order, we have calm, we have SCHEDULES!!!!
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