cloudy

Frustrated. Overwhelmed. Wanting to talk about it. I start to do so. I am interrupted and diagnosed before I’ve completed my thought. The assumption is a whole different plane. It’s rush-rush. It leaves me feeling worse. Not only have I not gotten it out, “it” has now been misconstrued. I don’t talk next time. It builds up and is added on to with something else that came up.

Solution? I feel it’s to find a sponsor – someone I can keep up to date, talk to regularly. However, the above is my block to finding one as of yet. The only one I would choose is unable to sponsor anyone at this time. I am looking, just not finding yet.

I journal. I post, my typed words read all the way through. But I need more. Just venting about it. I feel such a buildup today and I don’t like it.

Please God, send me a listener…someone who can slow down. amen.

love Cloudy

cwohio

cloudy - first - your mailbox is full!

second - i too have not found a sponsor yet so let's pray for each other ok!

hugs - christie

cloudy

thanks Christie, sounds good.

Recent Alanon interactions either before or after a meeting or over the telephone Gianna.

I don't want to give the impression I don't still walk out of Alanon feeling better and having heard many good things - always something good.
I'm referring to the more personal conversations. It just doesn't help if the person is not able to slow down and actually listen and is responding to something they haven't heard but rather finished out themselves, possibly in an "oh I've got it!" state of mind I don't know.

I am fully ready to listen. But it would be nice to be heard as well, and then listen to any feedback to that.

I don't even dare think about such a conversation with a "normie."

cloudy

Yeah, true Gianna. And really, bless their hearts, these are people who have a lot to offer. I think a lot of it is that they are just spread too thin and I need super thick you know? It’s like they are just trying to do it too fast and it really, really takes away from any quality. I need someone to talk to who has time to listen, really listen before “responding.” But how do I find that without just handing out a pamphlet saying hey I’m looking for this, this, and this if you can give me that plus whatever wisdom you want to throw my way then let me know! You know?

Savana 54

((((cloudy))))

I know how you feel...Praying for a sponser is a good idea..I guess maybe thats why I quit going to meetings; seems most people are spread to thin; working their program, taking care of themselves and their children; I understand it's hard for them to take on a new sponsee.

I hope you find what you are looking for...I think I've given up

walkingtheline

You know...hehehe...you actually could make a flyer and pass it out!

Something like:


You get the idea! You could have some fun and maybe find the right person!

cloudy

Don't give up Savannah! I won't either.

WTL, that is cute :-)

FriendofBill

Great freakin' idea, Irene! Bloody funny!

equus

Edit - whoops!! Sorry I didn't read the post carefully enough, I thougt you were refering to a counsellor!

I think you sound really smart to be sceptical of folks quick to diagnose!! I reckon you'll be a good judge of whether a sponsor is good for you when you get one!!