How can he make me feel so bad!??
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Join Date: Apr 2002
Location: Chicago
Posts: 175
How can he make me feel so bad!??
Hi everyone...I am loosing it tonight......................
I have a group arriving for the baptism of my grandaughter this Sunday. My Mother is here and she is very ill, she has emphysema. Tonight was a nightmare as my A was at his all time worst. He decided to pour his guts out to my Mother...upsetting her, me and everyone else.
I have kept the knowledge of having another A in my life from her until today. Well lets say we have never dicussed my A # 2. She had her A too, my step dad.
My A went balistic when he found out she gave him money for a trip to Vegas....it was his 30th b'day. My son is not is child. He joined up with my daughter , her boyfriend, my youngest sisiter her hubby and my neice....for a very fun get together. I did not tell him my son was going as he has always had a problem with my son and I have to keep secrests to keep peace.
None of my kids really drink, no problems with the law and no drugs. How bad can they be...they are not.
I was so angry I called his parents and told them to "DO" something with their bottle plus a day Vodka drinking big mouth drunk of a son. Ha Like they can...but it made me feel better transfering some of my pain.
I was almost wild with anger.
This marriage is just OVER...I have No compassion at all for him, I don't even want to hear his voice...it send chills up my spine.
Ok I have vented....thanks
I feel so frusutrated inside and so unhappy...and out of control.
Love, Kitty
I have a group arriving for the baptism of my grandaughter this Sunday. My Mother is here and she is very ill, she has emphysema. Tonight was a nightmare as my A was at his all time worst. He decided to pour his guts out to my Mother...upsetting her, me and everyone else.
I have kept the knowledge of having another A in my life from her until today. Well lets say we have never dicussed my A # 2. She had her A too, my step dad.
My A went balistic when he found out she gave him money for a trip to Vegas....it was his 30th b'day. My son is not is child. He joined up with my daughter , her boyfriend, my youngest sisiter her hubby and my neice....for a very fun get together. I did not tell him my son was going as he has always had a problem with my son and I have to keep secrests to keep peace.
None of my kids really drink, no problems with the law and no drugs. How bad can they be...they are not.
I was so angry I called his parents and told them to "DO" something with their bottle plus a day Vodka drinking big mouth drunk of a son. Ha Like they can...but it made me feel better transfering some of my pain.
I was almost wild with anger.
This marriage is just OVER...I have No compassion at all for him, I don't even want to hear his voice...it send chills up my spine.
Ok I have vented....thanks
I feel so frusutrated inside and so unhappy...and out of control.
Love, Kitty
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Kitty, have I ever told you how cute you are. I love your personality.
Are you in any better position to leave if you want to? I know that you stated before that you were feeling trapped. Is there anything you can do to plan for an escape if you want one?
It's really hard to live the life you are living. You can come and vent all you want.
I just feel kind of helpless because I don't have any good advice. I will say prayers for you and we're all here for you.
Do nice things for yourself. Try to get away and have some fun once in awhile.
Hugs,
MG
Are you in any better position to leave if you want to? I know that you stated before that you were feeling trapped. Is there anything you can do to plan for an escape if you want one?
It's really hard to live the life you are living. You can come and vent all you want.
I just feel kind of helpless because I don't have any good advice. I will say prayers for you and we're all here for you.
Do nice things for yourself. Try to get away and have some fun once in awhile.
Hugs,
MG
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Join Date: Mar 2002
Location: By The Lake
Posts: 60,328
Hi Kitty
I agree with MG, that it is time to put a plan into place, even if you do not use it just yet. We get frustrated and angry when we feel "stuck" and without options. Knowing that we have choices or options can give us a sense of freedom and a safer place to be.
Only you can decide, but you have said that it is over and you don't want to be with him so cool down and decide what your next move will be.
And don't forget to breath - in and out - often. Decisions like that should be made when we are thinking calmly and rationally. Decisions made during emotional lows (or highs) are not often our best choices.
You have so much going for yourself, Kitty, and I believe that you are capable of making a good choice here. If undecided, then make a temporary survival plan for yourself until you are ready.
My thought and prayers are with you.
I agree with MG, that it is time to put a plan into place, even if you do not use it just yet. We get frustrated and angry when we feel "stuck" and without options. Knowing that we have choices or options can give us a sense of freedom and a safer place to be.
Only you can decide, but you have said that it is over and you don't want to be with him so cool down and decide what your next move will be.
And don't forget to breath - in and out - often. Decisions like that should be made when we are thinking calmly and rationally. Decisions made during emotional lows (or highs) are not often our best choices.
You have so much going for yourself, Kitty, and I believe that you are capable of making a good choice here. If undecided, then make a temporary survival plan for yourself until you are ready.
My thought and prayers are with you.
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Join Date: Feb 2002
Location: Cleaverville
Posts: 2,898
Kitty,
It sounds like you are reacting to what is going on around you and swinging wildly at anything that moves...it may help momentarily but doesn't do alot for he bigger picture. In fact it often makes it worse.
Reacting is a huge characture defect for me and I have to contantly fight against it. When I am successful my life is a whole lot calmer.
I am sorry your secret got blown to your mother, I know how it feels for that to happen. You want to crawl in a hole!
Move on...you are hurting yourself and everyone around you when the codependet crazies take control.
It sounds like you are reacting to what is going on around you and swinging wildly at anything that moves...it may help momentarily but doesn't do alot for he bigger picture. In fact it often makes it worse.
Reacting is a huge characture defect for me and I have to contantly fight against it. When I am successful my life is a whole lot calmer.
I am sorry your secret got blown to your mother, I know how it feels for that to happen. You want to crawl in a hole!
Move on...you are hurting yourself and everyone around you when the codependet crazies take control.
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